As I said, I understand anxiety/panic very well; I spent the better part of a year almost entirely in one room due to severe, multiple daily panic attacks before I finally went out and got prescribed Klonopin for it. I know how horrible anxiety and panic attacks can be, and how desperate the need for something to make it go away can get. I do believe, though, that if your anxiety is so intense that you need to plug your medication because you can't wait the half hour -- or considerably less if you crush it or take it sublingually, which hits faster than anally IIRC -- then you should probably be on a decent medication regimen that does actually control your anxiety. That's not meant to sound preachy or anything, but I know that it's a lot easier for me to take three pills a day and be panic-free 24/7 than to wait until the panic gets so bad that I have to go to fairly dire measures to ease it. But please hear me when I repeat that I know how much of a nightmare it can be between beginning to panic and feeling the benzos kick in. I've spent many a night in the ER sure it was a heart attack because the attacks were that severe. As soon as they put me on Klonopin daily as opposed to a PRN, the panic stopped. If you have terrible anxiety -- which is an absolutely debilitating problem that can seriously fuck your life up -- don't you think maybe you should properly medicate the illness instead of ever GETTING to the point of the "waiting for it to kick in nightmare"?