it all started when i kicked street opiates (heroin, oxycodone, hydromorphone) and got into a methadone maintenance treatment program. i wasn't ready to stop getting high every day so i started taking some benadryl after my daily dose to try and reach that blissful nod. i love the way it made me feel, it took the edge off and just "zombified" me, as i like to call it. as my methadone tolerance dose up, as did my benadryl in take. for 8 months, i was taking anywhere from 250 to 400mg of diphenhydramine daily. i couldn't stop. i knew i was damaging my body, but at the time i just didn't give a flying fuck.
now, i've detoxed from methadone and cut my benadryl intake down drastically (maybe 50-100mg 3 times a week). i started to notice some changes in myself. my lower abdomen is cramped up at all times, i feel like i can't formulate sentences correctly, my people skills have gone down the drain, i'm depressed but can't muster up enough emotion to cry even though i feel like i need to, my brain just feels slow all around. do you think this is from my benadryl abuse and do you think these are just short term ramifications?
i know benadryl addiction/abuse is a pretty rare problem and it's long term effects from abuse aren't very well known. i just need some insight on the situation. so i turn to you, bluelight.
i'm really fucking freaked out. any feedback would be greatly appreciated.