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    #51
    seems like a good write up got about half way and stopped because all the black was just bluring together but in all other cases.... There's Trainspotting that's = to this story.
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    You know you can hold CTRL and use the scrolling device on your mouse to adjust the size of the text?

    My friend made a PDF out of the masterpiece and gave it plenty of paragraphs. If anyone wants it, pm me ur email or something.
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    yeah liked it proper
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    Wow, I began reading and couldn't stop until I got to the end, a half hour or so well spent. Very well written and a true insight into the life of a long term drug addict.
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    Epic. Thank you.
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    Absolutely. fucking. amazing. My life's story in a nutshell (but w/o the budding writing career and homosexuality); and i'm sure most of you junkheads can relate too.

    LOL, this line made me almost fall out of my chair in laughter...

    Everything You Ever Wanted to Know About Sex, the abominable Dr. David Rubin's late-'60s bestseller, seemed to tell me exactly what to expect: a career of furtive shame, compulsively cross-dressing, dildoing myself with summer squash. How could I feel good about my deviant self? Faggot! Cocksucker! Buttfucker!
    OOOOOOOOH MY FUCKIN GOD! I HAVEN'T LAUGHED THAT THOROUGHLY IN A WHILE! THANK YOU. THANK YOU VERY MUCH, SIR!
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    Simply amazing, words cannot even begin to describe...
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    not that any body would care to believe it but i read this story and was in the middle of a 3 day binge relapse call it whatever you want though it was the first iv'e had since i was 19 (26) now. Anyway back to the reason oh i was on my shitter trying to somehow shoot this fucking opana er 40mg which will give you a rush but i doubt i got more than 1/50th in the rig before it gels (timing is everything) when i figured out how to even get that haha.Anyway long story short i chucked all the rigs and thought about that fucking gorilla peaking in my window
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    -Methadone can help
    -Burning stomach acids spewed all over the hallway.
    Fucking classic,totally relate there....

    Good read though......good luck
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    [QUOTE=.Anyway long story short i chucked all the rigs and thought about that fucking gorilla peaking in my window[/QUOTE]

    -Good idea.....Keep that fucker outside......
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    That was completely and utterly absorbing.
    The style of the narrative suited the tale perfectly, and made it an interesting read. Actually, interesting is not a strong enough word.
    I was sucked inside the story and completely unable to even look up until I had finished the whole thing.
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    jesus christ this hit me directly on so many levels...
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    Very well written!
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    Psychologist Stanton Peele skewers several vital organs of the disease model in his 1989 screed, The Diseasing of America: Addiction Treatment Out of Control. Intent on assailing the practice of remanding to twelve-step programs and profit-driven treatment centers everyone who is nabbed Driving While Impaired or who has flunked a piss test, though, Peele fails to acknowledge adequately the flaming insanity of hard-core, terminal addiction. "Insane" may be the only diagnosis for those so obsessed with getting off they compulsively court death and disaster every day, in every way. In so far as it is chronic, progressive, and fatal, yeah, addiction sure looks, walks, quacks and squats like a morbid illness.
    Amen... when the f will people get off that "pull yourself up by your own bootstraps, addiction is a CHOICE" crap and realize that THE BRAIN IS AN F'ING ORGAN AND IT CAN BECOME ILL LIKE ALL THE REST.

    It seems only end-stage addicts realize what the OP has... and NA is clearly geared toward them, in my experience. I have changed my mind completely about NA over the past 6 months (altho I still don't go, hahah).
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    great fucking god
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    I am left with out words.... Thank you. This has to be the an epic of life theat is comparable to On the Road. Thank you. You should really write as often as possible.. Thank you again.
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    "I surrender to a life of living with reality, that final frontier"


    genius
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    Yeah that's spot on mate. Makes me think about like, about all the money I've shot into my arm, and all the old heads that dropped out of the scene or worse just dropped dead. Ugh.. kinda makes me feel a bit dirty inside too... I know the 'why eat/sleep/wash/socialize' mentality far too well..
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    I have lived a life of a junkie for 10+ years and I can relate to most of this post. I am grateful that the methadone works for me . Tooo will some times as I'd like to get a buzz but maybe that would be inviting king kong back on my back. Sure gave me something to think about.

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    "Where is the cave where the wise woman went/And tell me where is all the money that I spent?/I propose a toast to my self-control/See it crawling helpless on the floor/Someday there'll be a cure for pain/And that's the day I throw my drugs away"--Morphine, "Cure for Pain,"

    dude....i wish i could say there will be a cure....i have pain without drugs....you have pain because of the lack of drugs....what's the difference? there is none.....i have always coveted that quote from morphine, so when i saw your post, i was smitten ; )
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    that was incredible
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    just wow!
    that story reminds me of one of my first 12-step meetings. i walked in and saw the person chairing the meeting and he was one of my former very best customers for years... all i could think was: thank god he is still alive.
    thanks for writing this.
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    Sir, i know you as seedless, blahblahblah, and Andy....I also know you as an inspiration. I'm 25 years old and that did more for my life than any shrink could ever do. Have I taken my last stab? I doubt it. Have I read this for this last time...Absolutely not. That goddamn King Kong.
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    HOLY SHIT!! What a brilliant masterpiece. I am never touching "O" again. Fuck king kong. This writing will save many lives. This should be required reading for anybody considering experimentation with opiates, or anything else for that matter. Thank you for sharing your experience.


    12 days clean
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    Quote Originally Posted by hbfreekwan
    i have been snorting 200-300 mg of oxycontin daily for 2 years now, i had just quit 6 days ago and i relapsed tonight. searching through bluelight led me to this. i dont know if i can ever quit...
    one day you'll manage it. you've just got to be ready and in the right frame of mind. i'd been using heroin on and off for 6 years, solidly for the last 3 and i just kept relapsing. this time im managing to stay clean though and stick to a script. trust me when i say if i can do it you certainly can...
    keep your chin up
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