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☮ Social ☮ PD Social Talk Thread: If 2020 Was the Dumpster, Can 2021 Be the Fire?

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couldbesojs said:
It's weird if I jump off a large mountain or high spot in world of warcraft I get the zero gravity feeling in my stomach like going down a hill fast in a car or a roller coaster.

Definitely changed some wiring in my brain.
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i get that aswell. Any game that is a high jump i physically cant watch the screen or i nearly black out.
 
Buzz Lightbeer said:
A couple years ago something switched in me though and I don't really enjoy games anymore. I wish I did but I quickly get bored and I don't get the same satisfaction.
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Same. As a kid I was obsessed, my mom called it "Nintendo fever", I would get really obsessed and freak out when she tried to make me stop, and I'd get enraged when I lost/died/etc. It got to where I only got to play 2 half hour sessions per week, or 3 if I did all my chores. And only on the weekend, and not 2 consecutive half houir periods. Then when I got a little older I didn't have restrictions anymore.

The most obsessed I was though was the online multiplayer RPG MUD game, all text, called Dragonrealms, which is where Xorkoth is from, he was my character in there. He was an elven Moon Mage, and a total bad ass scholar warrior wizard. It was my other life, SO MUCH more immersive than any graphics-based game, like how reading a book is much more engrossing than watching TV/movies. I had a wife in the game even (another player, we almost met in real life eventually until is was discovered that I was 15 and she was 18 :ROFLMAO: ), and a bunch of friends, and participated in the storyline of the game and it was just awesome. I'd play 8 hours a day if possible, I'd wake up at 5am before school a lot of the time. I loved that game, I eventually got banned for scripting boring skills (crushing herbs in a mortar and pestle for hours to gain ranks in mechanical lore, etc), AFK scripting was against the rules but you could script if you were at the keyboard. I was programming a web site for the game, that was a database and interface for all the magical devices in the game (mostly for the rare/unique ones dropped at invasions and in-game story events, nothing existed like that for the players). They didn't care, though, I broke the 10 minutes not noticing their promoting at the keyboard, by like 30 seconds, and after about 7 years of paying for monthly service, even playing since the early AOL days from before it went for-pay, I was perma-banned and Xorkoth was erased from the game permanently. It was pretty devastating. Then I realized Xorkoth lived on, as my online psychedelic wizard avatar. :p

Anyway the last gaming system I owned was the Nintendo 64. When I went to college, none of my friends were into gaming at all, we partied and got high and played frisbee and shit instead. I just didn't game anymore and then I stopped thinking about it or wanting to and now it doesn't appeal to me. I did just find all my old SNES game and cleaned them up and discovered they're worth good money, though. Gonna hang onto them and watch them go up in value. I had all my N64 games too, but my little brother took them after he blacked out and pissed on his Nintendo 64, and his X-Box. Then he blacked out and pissed on my Nintendo 64 and he's not sure if the games are at my mom's house or just gone. Asshole 🤣
 
Buzz Lightbeer said:
Same.. he was at the hospital when he last checked in here I think, I don't think he could've killed himself there even though he would've if he could, as he said. Seeing someone openly talk like it's the last hours of their lives is chilling, there must've been a lot of pain, which hurt to read, I didn't process it at the time itself sadly. But like I said last time, it's Charlie, it could be anything, he has a gift for pushing on in the most unlikely situations. I had a terrible feeling about it on my 2C-E trip but it's not for me to judge his decisions. Wherever he is, I hope he knows he is appreciated here.
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Fuck... :(

I am really worried. I hope when the dust settles, if he's okay, that he remembers this time, moving forward, how bad dissos and benzos are for him. He exploded his life last year with dissos, too, and sure enough before you know it, they're the greatest thing in the world again and somehow making everything perfect. Dissos are so insidious for some people. It's like the famous meme:

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Man I've been sick for like almost 2 weeks now after that show 2 weekends ago. It seemed like it basically got better finally, for a few days I felt achey and sick, then it was just a persistent scratchy throat. I kept vaping which was dumb. Then 2 days ago I felt basically 100% better. So I vaped some, not even that much, then that night I started coughing like crazy, coughing up all sorts of phlegm, coughing until it really hurt. Yesterday was bad, I was coughing up green shit and all day had to try to exercise iron will to ignore my throat tickles to try not to cough... I still coughed quite a number of times. When I got back from band practice, I felt like shit, super achey, and I had a fever of 101. Slept a lot, woke up almost as achey as when I had covid. Coughed up a little more greeb stuff but my throat and chest feel better and I don't have a fever, and as more time goes along, I am feeling less sick.

What the fuck though? I have an album release show in 2 days! And we can't move it. I suppose I should get a covid test since it does share a lot of similarities, but I got covid, AND I'm fully vaccinated. So what the fuck.
 
Welcome back!!
What did you do land yourself in the psych hospital? Besides the drugs I mean.

You seem to get yourself into some shit every time you get your hands on some dissos. I’d recommend for you to just stick to psychedelics going forward. Dissociatives are too easy to abuse if you don’t have self control, which it seems you lack. And they are not as forgiving as psychedelics when you abuse them.
 
Cosmic Charlie said:
Just got home from the Psych hospital, got s0 dusted did a gram of 3 -MeO-PcEin 3 days, it was wild 8 got reborn three times this month. Missed all of you so much. Just did some lines big 3D-MXE and Weed, 1mg Clonazepam 😛
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Welcome back, but dude get your shit together, you had 2 psych ward visits in less than a month, that is insane. Reborn my ass, get a fucking grip.
Disso abuse literally damages your brain, brain damage!!!

I'm out again, good luck
 
It was three...first 24 hours, second four days and the third involuntary. But I t was likencacation and I made SO MUCH artwork like 9 new pieces some mixed mediums
 


Sniffing the new MXE helped me so much today, did like 50mgs and its a kick ass drug. Misplaced my vialband the search begins, lol....
 
Cosmic Charlie said:
It was three...first 24 hours, second four days and the third involuntary. But I t was likencacation and I made SO MUCH artwork like 9 new pieces some mixed mediums
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I don't know how you don't worry about hurting other people when you're that fucked up.

I personally will never touch a benzo under any circumstance or drink to blacking out ever again. Sometime ago I was on quite the bender drunk as fuck blacked out on benzos emptied most of my bank account buying cocaine. Decided to drive to the city while blacked out to buy acid was too fucked up so my friend (who later tried to sue me and my girlfriend and everyone involved total piece of shit) started driving then he was too fucked up so my girlfriend started driving.

We got 15 hits of acid and a gram of MDMA left 3 hits for my girlfriend after we got home and ate the rest. While on the way back as the acid was hitting us and we were no longer fully blacked out my girlfriend swerved and hit another vehicle and flipped the vehicle and totalled it on the freeway. Got out from the wreck just as the acid was starting to hit us, I had no shoes on and I was wandering around the freeway salvaging broken cigarettes that were tossed in the accident.

It was an absolute shit show.

You've lost control completely and eventually something will happen that you can't take back.
 
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Just want to say hi to everyone, especially Xorkoth. Cool to hear about the history of your name. porstock was the name of a small music fest in the early 2000s and has been my online name since.

I’ve been absent from blue light for a few years and was never that active of a poster. I think I got reading one of your reports on erowid - ETH-LAD perhaps and then was led back here. I see your name in all the big and dandy threads and sometimes find myself wanting to reply to something you said, but I refrain since it’s usually from like 8 years ago haha
 
fuck trying to get properly woken up for my day. Had a shit sleep even 150 mg of caffiene not done much. i only had one bowl of weed in the bong last night. fuck my caffiene tolerance must be insane
 
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