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Hey yall. Things have been going ok for me lately. However i think im starting to get depressed again. Im not sure if ifs *ahem* that time of the month soon or if its because my psychiatrist is leaning me off my risperidone. I take prozac for ocd, anxiety and depression, aderall to focus and concentrate, naltrexone for drug cravings (do not need anymore), risperidone (do not need at all it was given to me when some fuckers thought i was psychotic (i am not)).

I did read that risperidone can help with depression though. I was on four mg now im on 3 supposed to be on two but havent picked up my new prescription yet.

It was causing me to have high levels of prolactin and it still probably does.

Im afraid to tell my psychiatrist ive been feeling depressed lately but i already called the mental health place. However them fuckers wouldnt let me speak to her so i left a fucking message 🙄.

Its not bad now i just feel sad and lonely all the time. It used to be really bad. I dont know whats causing it. Maybe its the fact im alone all day at home three days a week (i have no car).

I cried at work yesterday. I tried holding it in but i couldnt any longer. I asked to speak to a friend and it just came out and i was in front of someone i like.

That relationship is going nowhere. Hes too old for me. Ive never had a real boyfriend/girlfriend unless you want to call that boy in second grade my boyfriend 😂. I have no friends my age except for one who lives out of state and we talk online.

I feel like i look like an attention seeker. I am not. I dont do shit for attention. But do i want attention? Yes just not mental health medical/therapeutical attention.

Maybe i outta start working more hours. I currebtly work 30 now and am taking three college classes.

I also have high blood pressure and have been having so for years. I wonder if its because of the prozac. I will tell yall something important though. Im on 60 mg of prozac and it often makes me get heartburn and throw up.

My psychiatrist wants to lean me off the przozac a little bit too but im fucking scared to because everytine i went down doses or stopped taking it i did some stupid crazy shit. It pisses the fuck out of me how im trying to get in contact with my psychiatrist and those bitches wont let me talk to her. Oh well guess ill just see how this shit goes 🙂
 
Sksjdjeisnfkeishz said:
Hey yall. Things have been going ok for me lately. However i think im starting to get depressed again. Im not sure if ifs *ahem* that time of the month soon or if its because my psychiatrist is leaning me off my risperidone. I take prozac for ocd, anxiety and depression, aderall to focus and concentrate, naltrexone for drug cravings (do not need anymore), risperidone (do not need at all it was given to me when some fuckers thought i was psychotic (i am not)).

I did read that risperidone can help with depression though. I was on four mg now im on 3 supposed to be on two but havent picked up my new prescription yet.

It was causing me to have high levels of prolactin and it still probably does.

Im afraid to tell my psychiatrist ive been feeling depressed lately but i already called the mental health place. However them fuckers wouldnt let me speak to her so i left a fucking message 🙄.

Its not bad now i just feel sad and lonely all the time. It used to be really bad. I dont know whats causing it. Maybe its the fact im alone all day at home three days a week (i have no car).

I cried at work yesterday. I tried holding it in but i couldnt any longer. I asked to speak to a friend and it just came out and i was in front of someone i like.

That relationship is going nowhere. Hes too old for me. Ive never had a real boyfriend/girlfriend unless you want to call that boy in second grade my boyfriend 😂. I have no friends my age except for one who lives out of state and we talk online.

I feel like i look like an attention seeker. I am not. I dont do shit for attention. But do i want attention? Yes just not mental health medical/therapeutical attention.

Maybe i outta start working more hours. I currebtly work 30 now and am taking three college classes.

I also have high blood pressure and have been having so for years. I wonder if its because of the prozac. I will tell yall something important though. Im on 60 mg of prozac and it often makes me get heartburn and throw up.

My psychiatrist wants to lean me off the przozac a little bit too but im fucking scared to because everytine i went down doses or stopped taking it i did some stupid crazy shit. It pisses the fuck out of me how im trying to get in contact with my psychiatrist and those bitches wont let me talk to her. Oh well guess ill just see how this shit goes 🙂
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I don't think you are an attention seeker, you just have a lot going on. I did not like risperdal when I was on it but I also wasn't very compliant. I think going off and on again is worse than just sticking with it. I'm glad you are tapering off properly under the supervision of your psychiatrist.

Sorry you are having trouble reaching your psychiatrist. Most docs I've dealt with do not take calls. But they will usually see you for an appointment. Is there any way you can schedule a proper appointment even if it's sooner than your next scheduled one?

Also see if there isn't a better alternative for prozac. IME it is usually easier to transition to a different med than tapering clean off a med to nothing. Maybe you can taper off prozac while simultaneously titrating onto a different anti-depressant.
 
Sksjdjeisnfkeishz said:
Hey yall. Things have been going ok for me lately. However i think im starting to get depressed again. Im not sure if ifs *ahem* that time of the month soon or if its because my psychiatrist is leaning me off my risperidone. I take prozac for ocd, anxiety and depression, aderall to focus and concentrate, naltrexone for drug cravings (do not need anymore), risperidone (do not need at all it was given to me when some fuckers thought i was psychotic (i am not)).

I did read that risperidone can help with depression though. I was on four mg now im on 3 supposed to be on two but havent picked up my new prescription yet.

It was causing me to have high levels of prolactin and it still probably does.

Im afraid to tell my psychiatrist ive been feeling depressed lately but i already called the mental health place. However them fuckers wouldnt let me speak to her so i left a fucking message 🙄.

Its not bad now i just feel sad and lonely all the time. It used to be really bad. I dont know whats causing it. Maybe its the fact im alone all day at home three days a week (i have no car).

I cried at work yesterday. I tried holding it in but i couldnt any longer. I asked to speak to a friend and it just came out and i was in front of someone i like.

That relationship is going nowhere. Hes too old for me. Ive never had a real boyfriend/girlfriend unless you want to call that boy in second grade my boyfriend 😂. I have no friends my age except for one who lives out of state and we talk online.

I feel like i look like an attention seeker. I am not. I dont do shit for attention. But do i want attention? Yes just not mental health medical/therapeutical attention.

Maybe i outta start working more hours. I currebtly work 30 now and am taking three college classes.

I also have high blood pressure and have been having so for years. I wonder if its because of the prozac. I will tell yall something important though. Im on 60 mg of prozac and it often makes me get heartburn and throw up.

My psychiatrist wants to lean me off the przozac a little bit too but im fucking scared to because everytine i went down doses or stopped taking it i did some stupid crazy shit. It pisses the fuck out of me how im trying to get in contact with my psychiatrist and those bitches wont let me talk to her. Oh well guess ill just see how this shit goes 🙂
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im around quit a bit, love to read articles here and harass a few members, but you can PM me to shoot the breeze, misery loves company but im a pretty positive person , though realistic too, i sure know how you feel, they loaded me up on anti depressant but i never followed thru with them after a few weeks and glad im not on them,but yeah life savers for many from what im learning, hope you feel better
 
Jerry Atrick said:
I don't think you are an attention seeker, you just have a lot going on. I did not like risperdal when I was on it but I also wasn't very compliant. I think going off and on again is worse than just sticking with it. I'm glad you are tapering off properly under the supervision of your psychiatrist.

Sorry you are having trouble reaching your psychiatrist. Most docs I've dealt with do not take calls. But they will usually see you for an appointment. Is there any way you can schedule a proper appointment even if it's sooner than your next scheduled one?

Also see if there isn't a better alternative for prozac. IME it is usually easier to transition to a different med than tapering clean off a med to nothing. Maybe you can taper off prozac while simultaneously titrating onto a different anti-depressant.
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Thats a good idea about scheduling an appoinment soon. My psychiatrist actually wanted to start lowering my dose of prozac due to the heartburn and throwing up. I just hope if and when i transition to another medication i dont do something stupid. Ive been taking prozac for four years now.

What i hate most about medications is the stupid side effects. I really hope i find the right medications for my ocd and depression.
 
nznity said:
This years Been shitty so far but i feel like I'm coming out from the darkest phase of my life so not everythings bad. I hope i can maintain myself sober this Time. im afraid of waking up in sweat wondering how to get my next shot. Not Worth it Man.
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Hey man, im glad you feel like your coming out of a dark phase. My years been a little shitty too.

Going into topic of sobriety, for me the longer i stayed clean the easier it got. It was really rough at first especially when people were doing drugs around me. But it got easier.

What helps is staying away from people who do use until you know you can handle it. I can handle it now.

Im sure you know what you are doing but id still like to give you advice if thats ok with you. It helps to be honest. I couldnt have maintained sobriety without being honest. The days get easier and im on naltrexone. It blocks opiate highs and helps with cravings. Im actually supposed to be getting off it soon because i feel like i dont need it anymore.

BUT be careful if you do deicide to take it. Because it blocks opiate highs and stays in your system for awhile. Meaning you could try to keep trying to get high but cant and youll end up overdosing.
 
nznity said:
This years Been shitty so far but i feel like I'm coming out from the darkest phase of my life so not everythings bad. I hope i can maintain myself sober this Time. im afraid of waking up in sweat wondering how to get my next shot. Not Worth it Man.
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Oops sorry for late reply didnt realize this response was so old lmao
 
Sksjdjeisnfkeishz said:
Hey man, im glad you feel like your coming out of a dark phase. My years been a little shitty too.

Going into topic of sobriety, for me the longer i stayed clean the easier it got. It was really rough at first especially when people were doing drugs around me. But it got easier.

What helps is staying away from people who do use until you know you can handle it. I can handle it now.

Im sure you know what you are doing but id still like to give you advice if thats ok with you. It helps to be honest. I couldnt have maintained sobriety without being honest. The days get easier and im on naltrexone. It blocks opiate highs and helps with cravings. Im actually supposed to be getting off it soon because i feel like i dont need it anymore.

BUT be careful if you do deicide to take it. Because it blocks opiate highs and stays in your system for awhile. Meaning you could try to keep trying to get high but cant and youll end up overdosing.
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Sksjdjeisnfkeishz said:
Oops sorry for late reply didnt realize this response was so old lmao
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Even though you were late in replying, you still gave some solid advice that other Bluelighters could find to be valuable. Thanks!
 
waiting on some real drugs. i set a cut off time of 8pm. cant be waitin on that goose all night. half of me wants to get it and the other half hopes 8 gets here quick. knowing the dope game more than likely it wont happen. lol
i do wanna get high, though.

ed: didnt happen
 
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Sksjdjeisnfkeishz said:
Hey yall. Things have been going ok for me lately. However i think im starting to get depressed again. Im not sure if ifs *ahem* that time of the month soon or if its because my psychiatrist is leaning me off my risperidone. I take prozac for ocd, anxiety and depression, aderall to focus and concentrate, naltrexone for drug cravings (do not need anymore), risperidone (do not need at all it was given to me when some fuckers thought i was psychotic (i am not)).

I did read that risperidone can help with depression though. I was on four mg now im on 3 supposed to be on two but havent picked up my new prescription yet.

It was causing me to have high levels of prolactin and it still probably does.

Im afraid to tell my psychiatrist ive been feeling depressed lately but i already called the mental health place. However them fuckers wouldnt let me speak to her so i left a fucking message 🙄.

Its not bad now i just feel sad and lonely all the time. It used to be really bad. I dont know whats causing it. Maybe its the fact im alone all day at home three days a week (i have no car).

I cried at work yesterday. I tried holding it in but i couldnt any longer. I asked to speak to a friend and it just came out and i was in front of someone i like.

That relationship is going nowhere. Hes too old for me. Ive never had a real boyfriend/girlfriend unless you want to call that boy in second grade my boyfriend 😂. I have no friends my age except for one who lives out of state and we talk online.

I feel like i look like an attention seeker. I am not. I dont do shit for attention. But do i want attention? Yes just not mental health medical/therapeutical attention.

Maybe i outta start working more hours. I currebtly work 30 now and am taking three college classes.

I also have high blood pressure and have been having so for years. I wonder if its because of the prozac. I will tell yall something important though. Im on 60 mg of prozac and it often makes me get heartburn and throw up.

My psychiatrist wants to lean me off the przozac a little bit too but im fucking scared to because everytine i went down doses or stopped taking it i did some stupid crazy shit. It pisses the fuck out of me how im trying to get in contact with my psychiatrist and those bitches wont let me talk to her. Oh well guess ill just see how this shit goes 🙂
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Sorry you're struggling with all of that.

I don't have much great advice, but I can certainly empathize I've been on the medication roller coaster for years and years. I eventually discovered SSRIs straight up don't work for me. I've found Wellbutrin to be effective enough with a lot less side effects.

I don't think reaching out is attention seeking behavior. We all need somebody to lean on sometimes, like that song says.
 
6am-64-14m said:
waiting on some real drugs. i set a cut off time of 8pm. cant be waitin on that goose all night. half of me wants to get it and the other half hopes 8 gets here quick. knowing the dope game more than likely it wont happen. lol
i do wanna get high, though.

ed: didnt happen
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I so love your honesty.
 
I might be moving into a much larger apartment, right next to where I already live (so moving won't be a hassle at all). It's 2 bedrooms instead of a studio and the price is great for where and what it is. It's just on the edge of what is affordable for me personally so I'll have to work out a better budget to make things work in other areas of my life but I don't have too many extra expenses and renting a better place to me is the obvious choice. I've really outgrown my studio, it's too small, and it's cluttered and cramped. Especially since I have support workers coming in and out it's pretty hard to do much with them given the small size of my accomodation. It would be far easier and more comfortable to have a bigger space to utilize. I should find out in a couple of weeks.
 
My girl has stayed at my place for like 18 days now. Im losing my apartment in 2 weeks and moving in with her.
Most beautiful woman ive ever seen. And as twisted as I am 😁
 
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