What is your total weekly dose? You said you take it sub-q on a daily basis in small amounts? Can you elaborate it.
Normally I take 150mg of Test Cypionate per week and 40mg of Masteron Enanthate per week, and I inject SubQ EOD (Mon, Wed, Fri, Sun, Tue, Thurs, Sat, and repeat)
I don't use an AI as I could not find a dose that would make me feel good, the Masteron removes mental high Estrogen symptoms, I had no physical symptoms except for some water retention.
A few more questions.
As i mentioned before, while my serum testosterone has always been high, my 5-alpha-reductase must not convert much to DHT because while I have had my hair thin over time, I still have quite abit of hair. Would I pretty much be expected to lose more hair if say I jump from my natural 900ng/dl serum levels to say 2,000ng/dl through the introduction of exogenous testosterone?
Your hair loss would likely be accelerated, especially at 2000ng/dl and over.
I wouldn't jump to 250mg/week right away, it may work for you as it does for many, but I'd start from 125-150 and stay there for 2-3 months, then titrate up if you want to experiment.
IME I don't like how I feel taking more than 150mg/week, I feel a bit sleepy and mentally foggy.
What about testicular atrophy? Is this pretty much guaranteed when taking a lowish dose of testosterone (lets say 1/4 gram of testosterone per week). I have abnormally large balls in both length and width, also very heavy and dense which I suppose isn't surprising since my testosterone is has always been abnormally high. Will they significantly atrophy for say 250mg of testosterone per week? I suppose I don't care if they atrophy, there isn't much benefit to having large balls. I've had women comment that they were the largest balls they've ever seen, which doesn't really bring me much pride since it is more rare to hear a similar comment about the rest of the package. In any event, are my balls guaranteed to shrink with 1/4g of testosterone a week, and if so, what sort of percentage decrease are we talking about. I care far less about this part than hair loss.
Taking Testosterone will cause some ball shrinkage, for me it's about 40-50%.
It's not strongly dose dependant, even very small amounts of exogenous Test will cause suppression of your HPTA in a few weeks.
Suppression is mostly caused by Estrogen levels, taking an AI (drugs that lower the rate of conversion of Test into Estradiol) or a SERM (drugs that occupy the Estrogen receptor blocking Estrogen's access to it) may restore some volume while you are on them, but I wouldn't recommend you take them for that purpose.
In fact you shouldn't run a SERM long term ever, and a dose of AI that reduces shrinkage is probably going to make you feel horrible and be very unhealthy for your brain and cardiovascular system.
HCG or Gonadorelin will restore testicular size and function even on cycle and are mentally tolerable and are probably going to be benign.
I wouldn't recommend these last 2 drugs just for your balls though, they will get your body producing DHEA and Pregnenolone which are important neurosteroids and that is their main benefit when taking AAS IMHO.
Another question. While people have mentioned the improvements in mood, sleep, anxiety and energy, what negatives can one expect with a fairly low dose of testosterone (like 250mg/week)? For instance, an increase in reactivity? More volatility? Mood swings? Anger? While I am in control of my actions, especially now at my age, I do naturally tend to run a little on the hot-blooded, aggressive side (probably owing to my life long high testosterone levels). When I was younger in particular I was a bit of a brawler and always enjoyed a good fight, and I still feel that desire seething under the surface. For instance just a moment ago I heard a neighbor's adult son that still lives with his parents (he's probably my age) slam his car door, and I instantly fantasize about grabbing him and slapping him around abit. In fact I frequently fantasize about violence against other men, and would possibly engage in some of these things if I could get away with it. Again, I am a nice civilized guy who has good control of my actions (I'm not one of those guys who throws violent temper tantrums like an oversized 3 year old). But due to the mad-monkey juice my balls are constantly synthesizing and pushing out into my blood stream I am by nature drawn towards aggression and frequently feel that gorilla-like pull to exhibit dominant behaviors. My question is, will this become worse? Will these aggressive inclinations increase? Will I become more irritable? This doesn't worry me much at all but I am simply curious about the negative psychological effects of supraphysiological testosterone.
IME no, Testosterone will not make you angrier or more prone to violence.
I wouldn't be sure if it's a negative, but I feel less stress during an argument/confrontation, which means I may drag it for too long which may be uncomfortable for the other person and make me come out as stubborn.
I was never aggressive or prone to violence anyway, and dragging an argument for too long is something I always did so no big changes there.
Having your Estradiol too high or too low can cause moodiness and snappy behaviour IME, so I would just recommend that you find a way to manage that.
There are steroids that are known for making almost anyone taking them a much worse person and even cause violent behaviour, Trenbolone, Halotestin/Fluoxymesterone and Cheque Drops/Mibolerone.
These are some of the most toxic and extreme compounds and you should not be taking them.
Another potential negative can be excessive horniness, even if you live with your partner your sex drive could become too high and not everyone wants to fuck 2 or 3 times per day every day and this could lead to some frustration.
No biggie as long as you don't start to wank it like a 14yo that just found PornHub.
Also, your body and facial hair will grow faster, and new hairs may grow as well.