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Positive Share Something Positive About Your Day vs This Does Not Suck (͠≖ ͜ʖ͠≖)?

I found the resolve to try to get sober/straightened out, lost the intense itch to get stoned or buzzed or whatever. Coming off a terrible bender lasted a month getting longer and harder to stop each time I go back out as of late it feels, usage getting worse and worse each binge well that's escalation I guess.

Don't have any legal charges to worry about could be in prison right now for how I was behaving glad I have freedom today even if I feel terribly unblessed. Entitled whitey upbringing without any real core values instilled by parents but they tried?
 
Nurse Ratched said:
Can't wait to get you in H and R with your modstick so you can be part of the loony squad and really lose your sanity. :cheer:

:group hug:
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I can only share my insanity as I highly doubt it can be added to. Its like a stack of unmortered brick. :ROFLMAO: Solid but unstable.
Thing is I know this so can manage the instability with brute force backed by decades of stupid decision making.
We do "grow up" it would seem never thought it would happen.
Be a freakin shame if something happened and my little stack of loose bricks were blown askew by the big bad wolf but think I can whoop his ass if I had to. Knowing he is coming at some point no longer stresses me but do have that sense of dread.
Wishing you the best, NR.
And always my love and respect.
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Found a new (to me) mushroom species, the dryad's saddle, right by my home. Actually have found several edible mushrooms just nearby in my suburban area.
 
Think I turned the corner with covid.. feeling quite a bit better today.

Garden is finally done pumping.. man did she giver.

Relaxing tonight and tomorrow. My massage therapist got surgery and is mia for a bit.. I know how selfish of her. Have to figure something high end out while she heals.. but anyway hitting an Asian joint tomorrow
 
After hell passed think to go high.On mountain meadows.There are treasures out there.Strong,fresh&clean.Flesh of the Gods-"teonanacatl"Aztec called it u know.They may be are ready....to connect through underground web of mycellia to trees&loose my point of view.
 
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