• Psychedelic Drugs Welcome Guest
    View threads about
    Posting RulesBluelight Rules
    PD's Best Threads Index
    Social ThreadSupport Bluelight
    Psychedelic Beginner's FAQ

☮ Social ☮ PD Social Talk Thread 2022-2023 v. Year of the Phenethylamine

SonnSonn said:
It is flattering how many people still remember me.

Anyways some of the useful things I discovered is that beta blockers, particularly propranolol, are really good at easing come up anxiety. If I decide to trip at a concert or some place with really large crowds of people, I will always bring 10-20mg propranolol with me just in case I need it. It doesn’t really change the experience that much besides just reducing the physical symptoms of anxiety which can be extremely helpful and harm reducing.

Lately I’ve been craving some stronger dissociatives lol k doesn’t really cut it these days
Click to expand...
This is useful to know. I have a whole bunch of this stuff left over from when I used to take it; they switched me from propranolol to metoprolol succinate (and a much reduced dose, too. The low blood pressure beta blockers cause, combined with my POTS and my forgetfulness about eating due to ADHD was causing me to randomly pass out 😂)
 
I used to get stage fright really bad but then a friend of mine told me he just decided not to get stage fright anymore, and I though "yeah whatever, you can't just decide not to get stage fright". Fast forward a few years and my own electronic music started taking off a bit and I remembered what my friend said, and was sick of getting stage fright and really needed to step up to the plate, so I just decided I wasn't going to have stage fright anymore either. Whatever I felt was just energy from being on stage. And it worked. It made me accept that a racing heart and even trembling hands were not a problem, and just a symptom of having that much energy channel through on stage. It really helped me to perform better and become more comfortable on stage. And eventually all of those anxious symptoms dissipate and you're just left with and incredible force.

I didn't go super far with music, but I did get chance to play a bunch of gigs in front of some pretty solid (and vibing) crowds. I've done a bunch of different things in my life, but the high from stage performance really is one of the most intense powerful highs there is IME. I can see why so many musicians get caught up in alcohol and drug addictions, you almost need stuff to cope with the aftereffects etc. And then 3 days later you're all alone in your studio, or some dingy hotel room, and nobody knows who you are... It can be an intense ride.

The other thing I wanted to say about being on stage was regarding the times when no one comes to your show, or the crowd isn't into it. I think that's the real test of a performer, being able to keep it together in that situation. I was really impressed when I saw a very popular DJ absolutely clear the dancefloor by playing D&B to a crowd at a rave at a moment (in the night, and in the bigger arc of dancefloor trends that passes over the course of years) when no one really wanted to hear D&B. He wasn't seen as a D&B DJ, he normally played breaks at the time, and I think everyone was expecting that from him. When he took to the main stage there were hundreds of people there ready to see him play, but within about 5-10mins everyone had slunk off the dancefloor and it was down to a half-dozen people left. But the guy didn't flinch for a second, he played out his whole set in D&B, with a smile on his face. I have so much respect for that. I mean on the one hand, he really didn't read the crowd, so maybe he didn't do his job, but on the other hand having that level of confidence that to almost intentionally clear the dancefloor like that and still be smiling, man that's impressive.
 
Screenshot-20221119-180802-2.png

Saturday, early evening. Enjoying a three day weekend. Already feels like Summer..

Did some gardening, went for a stroll through the meadows.

Feeling very calm. It's good.
Everything's good.
 
Funny, last night right around the time these stage fright posts were made, because of some Discogs wormhole I was looking into whatever had happened to DJ Skirt. In the early mid-2010s she was quite established, playing the likes of Tresor, Berghain, Dommune - the lot. Then suddenly she quit. Turns out performance anxiety was just too much.
 
perpetualdawn said:
I didn't go super far with music, but I did get chance to play a bunch of gigs in front of some pretty solid (and vibing) crowds. I've done a bunch of different things in my life, but the high from stage performance really is one of the most intense powerful highs there is IME. I can see why so many musicians get caught up in alcohol and drug addictions, you almost need stuff to cope with the aftereffects etc. And then 3 days later you're all alone in your studio, or some dingy hotel room, and nobody knows who you are... It can be an intense ride.
Click to expand...

Oh yeah, 100%. I consider it by far the strongest and best high there is. I get the most insane dopamine rush that puts anything else to shame, and it lasts the rest of the night, too. After I play, or even at set break, I have a hard time to talking to anyone, I pace, I can't calm my brain down. Also right before. Actually, after we're done, I have figured out how to get back into talking mode, but usually I end up talking non-stop like I just did a bunch of cocaine to all the people who come to talk to me afterwards about the band/music/my playing/etc.

It definitely lends itself to drug use. I get my strongest nicotine cravings at shows, especially after. And I pretty much can't sleep all night, after, unless I'm REALLY tired, or I get help with drugs.

It's definitely really intense... but good lord, that feeling. :devils:;)

The best part about it is actually just seeing all these people having the greatest time, dancing, freaking out, then gushing to you afterwards about what it meant to them.

perpetualdawn said:
The other thing I wanted to say about being on stage was regarding the times when no one comes to your show, or the crowd isn't into it. I think that's the real test of a performer, being able to keep it together in that situation. I was really impressed when I saw a very popular DJ absolutely clear the dancefloor by playing D&B to a crowd at a rave at a moment (in the night, and in the bigger arc of dancefloor trends that passes over the course of years) when no one really wanted to hear D&B. He wasn't seen as a D&B DJ, he normally played breaks at the time, and I think everyone was expecting that from him. When he took to the main stage there were hundreds of people there ready to see him play, but within about 5-10mins everyone had slunk off the dancefloor and it was down to a half-dozen people left. But the guy didn't flinch for a second, he played out his whole set in D&B, with a smile on his face. I have so much respect for that. I mean on the one hand, he really didn't read the crowd, so maybe he didn't do his job, but on the other hand having that level of confidence that to almost intentionally clear the dancefloor like that and still be smiling, man that's impressive.
Click to expand...

yeah definitely... that is the biggest test. It's good to get some of those, to test yourself. But as an experience, it's so much less gratifying.
 
Got it the antigen test today and I'm negative for COVID, so I have been bugging out for days for no reason. Got some antibiotics from my girlfriend I deff have a respiratory infection tho so that will clear it up I'm sure. Took a couple grams of Phenibut today for the first time in a year or so and I'm grooving pretty heavy right now, love that stuff.
 
Depends what it is, if it's a virus, antibiotics won't do anything. Like if it's a cold or the flu. I heard flu season started early this year. Whatever it is though, I hope you feel better soon.
 
I love gifting people with psychedelic experiences. I usually only do it with close friends.

The last time I did it it was this girls first trip and her mom (who is actually closer to my age) tripped with us. We ate several ounces of fresh mushrooms between the three of us.

In a way I've always wanted to be a shaman and I feel like I get to do that in some minor way by being the delivery vessel of the trip and it being a gift.

If all goes well I'm gonna gift a buddy with a 2c-e trip tomorrow. I haven't done 2c-e in 12 years. Honestly I never thought I'd see it again.

My buddy reached out to me saying he needed to trip and get some therapy out of it so tomorrow we're supposed to make it happen.

Wish us luck! I always appreciate wishes for good vibes during a trip (prayers) and I wish them to you in return.

I'm probably gonna flip since I've been on mdma all day today. I know I'll enjoy the trip more if I do. Plus I don't want to trip on an mdma crash again. Not that I get bad crashes but it can definitely be tough when you're tripping after rather than during mdma. I've done it twice now and it can be rough so I'll probably just dose some mdma again with the 2c-e tomorrow. (later on Sunday). Maybe he'll want to too.

Peace
 
Last edited:
I haven't tried mdma with 2c-e before but I have done 4-mmc on the tail end of a 2c-e trip before and it was Heavenly.
 
simstim said:
I love gifting people with psychedelic experiences. I usually only do it with close friends.

The last time I did it it was this girls first trip and her mom (who is actually closer to my age) tripped with us. We ate several ounces of fresh mushrooms between the three of us.

In a way I've always wanted to be a shaman and I feel like I get to do that in some minor way by being the delivery vessel of the trip and it being a gift.

If all goes well I'm gonna gift a buddy with a 2c-e trip tomorrow. I haven't done 2c-e in 12 years. Honestly I never thought I'd see it again.

My buddy reached out to me saying he needed to trip and get some therapy out of it so tomorrow we're supposed to make it happen.

Wish us luck! I always appreciate wishes for good vibes during a trip (prayers) and I wish them to you in return.

I'm probably gonna flip since I've been on mdma all day today. I know I'll enjoy the trip more if I do. Plus I don't want to trip on an mdma crash again. Not that I get bad crashes but it can definitely be tough when you're tripping after rather than during mdma. I've done it twice now and it can be rough so I'll probably just dose some mdma again with the 2c-e tomorrow. (later on Sunday). Maybe he'll want to too.

Peace
Click to expand...

I often feel like if I was born into an indigenous culture, I would have definitely been a shaman or whatever equivalent term they use(d) in that culture. Funny enough, my bandmate calls me "the shaman of the group". I always feel it's my mission to go into psychedelic experiences to bring something back out for everyone else, and also I love introducing people to and guiding people through their experiences.
 
It's been an eventful day... my girlfriend decided this year that she wants a Christmas tree, which surprised me. When I met her, she hated Christmas. This was entirely due to bad associations from her fucked up childhood. But since we always go spend 1-2 weeks with my family for Christmas, and my family is great and also really loves Christmas, I've watched her go from hating Christmas to loving it over the past 7 years. This is the first year she's wanted a tree of our own. So, we rearranged the living room to accomodate it... in the process, moved a bookshelf upstairs to my room, which is good because my book collection is overflowing again despite the fact that I built a built-in bookshelf on a wall in my bedroom a while back. Then we went out to but a Christmas tree, get a curtain rod and curtains, some lumber for me to modify the bookshelf to hold more books, then we went grocery shopping for dinner plus some stuff for the Friendsgiving we're going to later this coming week, and we also went to an antique store where she had her eye on a bench for next to the door, for a place to put shoes under, and also to sit and put your shoes on.

Now I'm cooking dinner, made a nice fire (cold as fuck outside), while she took the rug to the laundromat to wash it (we have this rug from the company Ruggable, which you can machine wash and dry, which we use as an area rug in the living room. Once she's back, we're going to eat and the put up the Christmas tree and decorate it a bit. We don't have many ornaments, but we have some lights and a handful that my mom has given us for Christmas each year. And she had me stop in this empty parking lot while she went and stole a bunch of berries off a winterberry holly bush while I kept a lookout (I felt sketched, she clearly did not and told me I was showing my lack of ever having to "urban forage" for things I needed :ROFLMAO:).

Gonna cozy up by the fire after we eat and set up the tree and maybe watch a little TV before bed. Nice day. :)
 
I had a wild weekend of heavy drinking at my cousin’s wedding. Good stuff. The hotel we stayed at was steeped in local history and absolutely gorgeous, easily the swankiest place I’ve ever stayed.

I’m hungover as fuck now tho lol. Gets worse as the day goes on. Haven’t drank like that since I was in my early 20s!
 
Shady's Fox said:
Whats ur band name and how can I find ur music
Click to expand...

Not gonna say that in public but if you really want to know I can send you a private message with my band's name. We have stuff on Spotify and a ton of live recordings of shows on our Facebook page
 
So I didn't trip today as I planned last night, but I am sure that we will in the near future.

Chinese buffet with my family today. Sushi, crawfish, frog legs, various mussels, crabs, they had all kinds of goodies.
 
You must log in or register to reply here.
Top