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☮ Social ☮ PD Social Talk Thread 2022-2023 v. Year of the Phenethylamine

Advice I should have taken:
Xorkoth said:
Whenever I feel what you're feeling in the second sentence, I take a break from CEPS. That place can be really disturbing and toxic.
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You weren't wrong..

Anyway, I have the next few days off. Going to go to this hippie town in the mountains; chill out, skate, smoke some weed and come back feeling refreshed if I don't break something skating while high.

I'll try not to do that.
 
Xorkoth said:
Not gonna say that in public but if you really want to know I can send you a private message with my band's name. We have stuff on Spotify and a ton of live recordings of shows on our Facebook page
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if you want please send me you music as well, I have been curious forba while. :)
 
Just found this guy in the bathroom unconscious here last night. Deff shot too much Fentanyl, I had to bang on the door hard for like five mins asking him if he is okay before he came out staggering. His legs were hanging out under the door and he was obviously laying on his side from the position he was in. Honestly thought he was dead, Jesus Christ this place is completely fucked. He kept calling me Nick, it was really fucking disturbing, cuz that guy died here two weeks ago.

If he wouldn't have gotten up when he did tho I was about to have to get the Narcan in my bag. But the problem was the door to the stall was locked from the inside. He just came super close to dying, can't wait till I'm outta here it's so sketchy. You really have no idea 😔

Ive literally been there and done the same shit , I get it. But I know now that I don't ever wanna live like that again. I'm not trying to die in my 30s, I got a road ahead of me and I'm not done yet. Honestly man if anyone is reading this that using street dope in the US "Fentanyl" please stop, cuz there is a high chance you will be the next to go, the dope game is dead. And it sucks yes, I used to love shooting Heroin. But I know those days are over, it is what it is.
 
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Well so that was a weird episode last week. Either I got kicked in the butt by benzo withdrawal, or by a combination of benzo withdrawal combined with a mere two doses of O-PCE. I'm not excluding that possibility, I remember night terrors from combining lormetazepam and MXE back in the days. But I couldn't sleep for a while despite getting exercise in. Maybe just because of distress, or it could confirm some sneaky early-stage benzo dependence. One evening puff of some weed I had laying around from two years ago did wonders though, biorhythm seems restored.

Anyway, glad I can think straight again, no need to put myself at the mercy of social services just yet. Therapy also doesn't seem like a good idea anymore. I know you just wanted to help, @Xorkoth, and offer at least something to someone in need. I do appreciate that, a lot. But you know, I've already read all the psychology books so to speak. People are lovely, but paying someone to tell me what I already know might not.. you know.. make that much sense. It was an interesting thought experiment, I haven't considered therapy in over a decade. And some personal dynamics have changed I suppose, compared to back when all help failed. Because the psychotherapy I did try out was either barely useful at best (the only help I got from it was being given the space to think out loud and solve my own problems, I cannot remember a single instance of direct assistance), and at worst a bloody disaster: incompetent monkeys prodding at emotional vulnerabilities, as if to try and punish the monsters they projected to fill in for what they couldn't do through empathy. Urgh. No, I'm still so done with that.

And of course, statistically, psychotherapy isn't even expected to work, generally speaking. I've ranted enough before about the technical reasons why, haven't I? From that point of view I can't deny it pissed me off to have been suggested therapy nevertheless, lol. But that'll teach me manifesting benzo panic attacks and desperately coming 'n cry over it. You'd think all the heavy drinking I've done in my days would have given me some intuitive feel regarding downers. Nope, turns out benzos are next level shenanigans.
 
Was gone for a while, ended up doing a few weeks of backbacking. Someone mentioned a while ago that 2C-E didn't cause much tolerance for them so I brought some along, and found I could take 8 - 12 mg doses about twice a week with minimal toelrance. I was on the long trail in Vermont and it was really great to mix that with 2C-E. The trail became a metaphor for life and it became a continuous meditation. Part of me is tempted to work temp jobs and then go back and do months of psychedelic thruhiking.

Another part wonders about going back to grad school and doing research on psychedelic tolerance and searching for one that doesn't cause it :)
 
Freeotrope said:
Was gone for a while, ended up doing a few weeks of backbacking. Someone mentioned a while ago that 2C-E didn't cause much tolerance for them so I brought some along, and found I could take 8 - 12 mg doses about twice a week with minimal toelrance.
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Good to know. What I find quite odd is that when I took 2C-E a day before 2C-B I had significantly reduced effects, but not the other way around. I have taken 2C-B two days in a row and never noticed any significant tolerance build up either. Maybe the 2C-E/2C-B thing was a one-off. 2C-E definitely needs some reevaluation on my part, but it’s been quite stressful the last few weeks.
 
Chris Timothy said:
Anyway, glad I can think straight again, no need to put myself at the mercy of social services just yet. Therapy also doesn't seem like a good idea anymore.
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I tend to think a lot of people diagnosed with something are more bright, intelligent and funner than the therapist who assigns a term to a person. I trust you all more than therapists. I am not kidding, I have more faith in you than a therapist that has issues themselves. However a good therapist can zero in on specifics if a person can not do it themselves.

Nervous as f*ck all. Crack of dawn here, taking my wife for her risky heart surgery. Got some benzos just in case. Have not taken any in weeks.
 
my experience with therapist is that they are best when they act as paid trained mirrors... when they are good they just fill the role that can not be replaced with any knowledge
 
JackARoe said:
I tend to think a lot of people diagnosed with something are more bright, intelligent and funner than the therapist who assigns a term to a person. I trust you all more than therapists. I am not kidding, I have more faith in you than a therapist that has issues themselves. However a good therapist can zero in on specifics if a person can not do it themselves.

Nervous as f*ck all. Crack of dawn here, taking my wife for her risky heart surgery. Got some benzos just in case. Have not taken any in weeks.
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Hope everything goes well brother ❤️

You'll be in my thoughts, let us know how she is.
 
JackARoe said:
I tend to think a lot of people diagnosed with something are more bright, intelligent and funner than the therapist who assigns a term to a person. I trust you all more than therapists. I am not kidding, I have more faith in you than a therapist that has issues themselves. However a good therapist can zero in on specifics if a person can not do it themselves.

Nervous as f*ck all. Crack of dawn here, taking my wife for her risky heart surgery. Got some benzos just in case. Have not taken any in weeks.
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Hope all went well man, take care of her and yourself
 
I rode my bike over to my buddy @mofopaco's tonight. Just got home.

We had some 2c-e and mdma. I'm still feeling pretty good.

We watched the Ralph Bakshi film Fritz the Cat. Good times!

Shout out to paco's cat Fritz!
 
I combined 2C-E and MDMA at a show once. For some reason, it didn't seem to combine well that time for me, though I was packed in a stadium with like 6,000 people, so that might be why. Hope you had a good time!

JackARoe said:
I tend to think a lot of people diagnosed with something are more bright, intelligent and funner than the therapist who assigns a term to a person. I trust you all more than therapists. I am not kidding, I have more faith in you than a therapist that has issues themselves. However a good therapist can zero in on specifics if a person can not do it themselves.

Nervous as f*ck all. Crack of dawn here, taking my wife for her risky heart surgery. Got some benzos just in case. Have not taken any in weeks.
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Oh man, I hope everything went well man. <3 Thinking of you.
 
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Yeah thanks so much for coming over to hang out with me simstim, mainly for helping me out of my apprehension to try the 2c-e and MDMA, felt great 👍 people, just really great. I can't wait to TRIP this weekend on LSD too, thanks for reaching out simstim & others 🤘🏼😁
 
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