- Sep 28, 2019
These were almost famous last words. I’ve been sick as a dog since I wrote them. But only just came out the other side late today. Got a lot of professional help over the last few days, plus confided in the few friends i have and my parents. Everyone gave me love and support and trusted that I knew what I was doing and was committed to being well and productive. It was such a burden to be able to just be (mostly) honest with people. I only shave a bit of time off how long I said I had been in seious trouble for ‘on and off for 6 or 8 months’ instead of the actual ‘mostly on with a little bit off for the last 18 months’.No. To be honest. I’m feeling really sick and depressed and having all kinds of weird brain spasms and zaps together with light head ness and dizziness. Some kind of dopamine problem I think. From mixing and then unmixing meth and anti-psychotics. My brain can’t cope with it all. I just need to lie low until I reach some kind of equilibrium with the minimum amount of heavy meds. Maybe just valium for now.