Sr. Moderator: TDS, H&R, MH
- Apr 30, 2006
- Dex's room
Oh damn it hun, I was bulimic for many many years so I truly know what you're going through. Does your partner know about it?? Can you talk to him about it? Being alone when eating is the worst and if you've already decided that you're going to do it, it's almost impossible to change your mind. But I used to find that distraction really helped me, after eating. Distract, distract, distract, distract, until it's too late to purge. Please feel free to message me if you wanna talk about iti am not feeling great. hungover. went out for a meal with my boyf last night to celebrate our last weekend living together in manchester. now we won't be living together until our house purchase has gone through. it was a fun day but at some point during the meal i twigged that if i just kept eating a bit more than i was comfortable with i could purge it when i got home. what a fucking idiot.
now he's gone out for fathers day and i'm here on my own. i just want to binge on alcohol and food and then purge. i'm trying not to. i have to get up at 6.30 to be out by 7.30 tomorrow morning as i'm travelling for work and i can't be in the state i'm in today. i think i'm stressed about moving. i'd been through a phase of purging earlier in the year and then kicked my ass to stop cos it makes me feel very unwell and i find it hard to stop once i start, especially when i'm so unhappy with my weight. i can't face doing it again so soon.