hey
@somnilicious thanks for checking in!!! i usually assume the worst when i don't hear from people so hearing you're killing it is mint. well done man honestly i'm proud of you.
@Blankenstein it does sound like a really difficult situation to not drink in so i would try not to get too stressed about it.
i have had a pretty shitty week. beginning of the week my boyf was away and i did some insane binge drinking. been better since he got back but only had one night not drinking this week. i think i've got to the point with alcohol and benzo use where they are impairing my ability to sleep naturally in a major way. so the one night i didn't drink i slept awfully, but then when i do drink that impairs my sleep too, so i still slept awfully. fucking tired.
gonna try going for a long run and see if i can have a nap after but its fucking pissing it down outside so not overly motivated.