@Blankenstein definitely rehab would be helpful for you. a circuit break and some time to focus would help, hopefully they'd provide good therapy too.
that sounds so stressful about your dad. parental illness is horrible. i'm glad you're able to help. its not your fault your job requires you to travel, just try and help when you're back home. it does sound like he probably needs more care than he can receive at home.
i have been up and down with drinking. managed to get it down to 1-2 nights per week and not super excessive on those nights. i'm dead set on never drinking in my new house, which i'll be moving into this weekend probably. i'll be living with my boyf so i won't be able to hide in my room, cos it'll be his room too.
definitely not buying gin to drink in my room again.
my stomach has probably forced me to stop. i've been in so much pain the last few days with it, and i know drinking and purging have caused that. i had today off work to help my boyf decorating and unpacking in the new house but had to come back to my parents and just lie down. i've had chronic stomach issues since my worst anorexia and the only thing that helps them not be completely debilitating is being sensible re alcohol and food.