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10 years in liquid hand cuffs

negrogesic

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Hey.my name is darcie.ive been an addict since I was 25.ive been on MMT for 10 years and hate it.anyways..joined looking for support when no one understands

Hey Darcie, I was on 380mg/day of methadone and I got off. I did it very slowly over 18 months and got off. So its definitely possible. That said i wasn't on it for as long as you. Still its possible to take off the cuffs it just takes time.

That said I haven't exactly been free of opioids, with little flare ups here and there, but nothing like before.
 

Darciesue

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Hey Darcie, I was on 380mg/day of methadone and I got off. I did it very slowly over 18 months and got off. So its definitely possible. That said i wasn't on it for as long as you. Still its possible to take off the cuffs it just takes time.

That said I haven't exactly been free of opioids, with little flare ups here and there, but nothing like before.
Oh wow.thats a high dose.i want so bad to feel normal.
 

OpiateKiller

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I just started MMT. I'm up to 120 mg / day. It seems to be going pretty good for now. Can you look on a brighter perspective of how methadone may have helped your life? Or maybe kept you alive?

I too plan to sooner than later taper, and get off.

My quality of life is dependent on how much sex I'm having and methadone is interfering with that 🤧
 

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Hey Darcie, I was on 380mg/day of methadone and I got off.

Wow. I'm not sure they should let people get on that much. I mean, obviously if you actually needed that much that'd be one thing. But it sure seems like it's never that anyone needs that high a dose, they just keep asking to go up.

I mean, I had a pretty big heroin habit, and I stabilized on 80mg. Now I don't wanna assume that because that worked for me it'd work for anyone. But still... 380mg is a lot.

Actually where I live I'm pretty sure they don't let you get on much more than 150-200.

Long.im a woman lol.named after my grandpa though so yea it's a boys name

Awesome. I think girls with boy names are cool. :)
 

negrogesic

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Wow. I'm not sure they should let people get on that much. I mean, obviously if you actually needed that much that'd be one thing. But it sure seems like it's never that anyone needs that high a dose, they just keep asking to go up.

I mean, I had a pretty big heroin habit, and I stabilized on 80mg. Now I don't wanna assume that because that worked for me it'd work for anyone. But still... 380mg is a lot.

Actually where I live I'm pretty sure they don't let you get on much more than 150-200.



Awesome. I think girls with boy names are cool. :)

I didn't need 380mg but it was an expensive private clinic and they allowed me to escalate my dose.

Part of it was that i broke my ankle jumping from the roof of my apartment to my balcony (I lost my keys and thought i could get in that way) while already on 240mg. I needed pretty invasive surgery so they gave me more and then i kept going up.

Im glad they allowed that much. Getting off of 380mg probably isn't that much harder than 200mg.

What's crazy was that I was shooting whole fentanyl patches on top of all of that. Somehow i survived, and oddly enough I've never overdosed on opioids...
 

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I didn't need 380mg but it was an expensive private clinic and they allowed me to escalate my dose.

Part of it was that i broke my ankle jumping from the roof of my apartment to my balcony (I lost my keys and thought i could get in that way) while already on 240mg. I needed pretty invasive surgery so they gave me more and then i kept going up.

Im glad they allowed that much. Getting off of 380mg probably isn't that much harder than 200mg.

What's crazy was that I was shooting whole fentanyl patches on top of all of that. Somehow i survived, and oddly enough I've never overdosed on opioids...

My concern isn't so much how hard it would be to get off it. I assumed that yeah it wouldn't be much harder than 200mg. Generally the hard part is reducing the dose once it's low not when it's high.

No my concern was more things like methadones effect on QT time. Looking after your heart.
 

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Welcome aboard!

Ana had just turned 18 years old and she was excited. This beautiful, young Latina girl with long, wavy brown hair, gorgeous hazel eyes and luscious lips was looking forward to seeing Beth again. Beth was a good friend of Ana's Mom and had been Ana's babysitter for years since she was a little girl. Beth was equally gorgeous with long, straight blonde hair, sky blue eyes that would pierce the heart and soul of anyone she would encounter and a tight, plump ass you could spend all day eating out and never have your fill.

Since Ana's parents would be on a trip over the weekend, they did not want to leave their daughter who had just turned 18 a few days ago fending for herself so they decided to invite Beth to spend the weekend with Ana so she wouldn't be alone. Under normal circumstances, Ana would have fought this idea feeling that she was old enough to be on her own. But, she really wanted to see Beth in the worst way.
The other night when Ana was slowly touching herself and sliding her middle finger into her moist, juicy pussy she had these thoughts that came rushing in like a flood. She imagined Beth rubbing her pussy against hers very slowly at first and then faster feeling and hearing their vaginal cum flowing between each other. With every stroke of their scissoring action, the moaning between them would grow louder and more passionate. Looking into each other's eyes as they continued to straddle together was intoxicating. Beth leaning in and slipping her warm tongue into Ana's mouth was overwhelming as the friction continued between their legs with an intensity that would rival some of the best love stories in literature.

Ana came all over herself in that moment and realized to her disappointment that it was all in her head. The passion, intensity and sweet nectarine that she could almost taste from Beth's pussy was all a fantasy. She made the decision that night that she would turn her thoughts into a reality next time she saw Beth. That next time came sooner than anticipated. Beth would be arriving any minute now and her parents would be gone for two whole days. Before Ana got caught in the fantasy again, there was a knock on the door.

Ana rushed down the stairs and Beth was standing in the living room greeting her parents. When Ana locked eyes with Beth, a certain glint in Beth's eyes along with her sweet half smile seemed to suggest that Beth was having the same fantasy. They embraced and Beth rubbed her hands up and down Ana's back in such a sensual way that Ana was worried for a moment that her parents might sense the attraction between them.

"Wow, you've grown, Ana...you look absolutely beautiful..." She said in a soft whisper.

Ana's parents thanked Beth for being available this weekend and kissed Ana good bye. Once they left the house, Ana turned to Beth and gave her another hug. She whispered in her ear "You have no idea how much I've been thinking of you". Beth was caught off guard but replied that she had been thinking of Ana quite a bit also.

They walked towards Ana's bedroom and sat on her bed. Ana held Beth's hand and said she was glad she could spend the weekend with her. She looked into Beth's eyes and said "I need to tell you something"...

"You can tell me anything", Beth responded.
Ana proceeded in telling Beth all about her fantasy. She went into detail about the way they sucked on each other's tongue's swapping spit multiple times. She went over how they rubbed pussies together in such a feverish way that their cum mixed together like the sweetest cocktail you can imagine. She talked about how they touched their nipples together and biting each others ever so slightly. She went over how they drank each other's pussy juices and continued kissing. When Ana finished telling her everything, Beth was speechless. You could tell that the fantasy had gotten her hot and bothered.

She looked at Ana erotically and couldn't control herself. She leaned in and kissed Ana intensely. Their tongues locked together like a vine intertwining. Their saliva mixed in such harmony and tasted so good they could hardly draw a breath. The heaving and panting began as they stripped off their clothes so fast that within 10 seconds their bodies were naked and touching each other. Nipple on nipple, pussy on pussy, missionary style as Beth moved her hips into Ana's. With every thrusting motion, their pussy lips kissed each other swapping juices so intensely that it was as if they were trying to conceive a child somehow out of their love for each other.

Ana couldn't believe what was happening. She had longed for this moment since she had that fantasy and it was finally happening. Beth was also having fantasies for so long and now they were both living it out. Ana moved on top of Beth and swirled her tongue around her nipples so softly that Beth couldn't help but moan and cum again. Ana's tongue slid all the way down Beth's belly button and in between her legs. Beth was writhing in pleasure as Ana drank her nectar moving her tongue so deep inside of her that Beth almost passed out in ecstasy.

Beth sat up and kissed Ana again tasting herself in the process. This time Ana slid her legs upwards while Beth kissed her inner thighs and moved her mouth over Ana's blooming flower. Beth sucked on her clitoris in a sensual way that Ana came in her mouth.

After Ana's climax, they looked into each other's eyes and kissed slowly again hugging and resting on top of each other. Ana laid her head on Beth's bosom and kissed her on the neck whispering in her ear.." I've always loved you..." Beth smiled and looked at her. She kissed her softly and said "I love you too baby...forever..." They fell asleep together knowing that they would have the entire weekend to keep fucking their brains out...
 
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geekgrl

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I very nearly went on MMT and then did my own taper over 2 weeks as I literally freaked about not being able to drive. I know people on and now off it, plus people who are still on. On the one hand I think it makes keeping off opiates easier, but it's the substitution from one to another that feels like an issue. I don't know the answer. But like the previous poster said, I'm sure there should have been some benefits to this?

Welcome BTW :)
 

Dogamine

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Hey.my name is darcie.ive been an addict since I was 25.ive been on MMT for 10 years and hate it.anyways..joined looking for support when no one understands

This is my first post, hi guys. I was on mmt for 5 or 6 years. What are your longterm plans? Surely by now you know you can't maintain forever. Youve seen the old heads at that clinic. It will mess your mind and body up. My hair was falling out in clumps and I was having manic episodes, I couldn't be awake for more than a few hours.

How do you feel and what is your dosage?
 
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