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Bizarre delusions during drug induced psychosis

Xorkoth

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I had a stage as a pretty young kid where I am SURE that I was going to get shot walking by windows at night. I remember seeing some show where a kid shot a gun and it killed someone across the street or something. Then it morphed into some "bad guy" creeping at the window and pointing a gun in. I would even think I saw gun barrels pointing in the windows. I would run as fast as I could past windows at night. It scared the absolute shit out of me.

I also became convinced there were aliens invading, and loud noises would kill them. One day I was at my cousin's house, and I saw a shadow going towards my dog and I shot at it with a cap gun and it stopped and disappeared. Somehow I then created this whole scenario where I thought aliens that looked like heat distortion patches were invading through my basement. My mom didn't let me have gun toys, so I found whatever I could to make loud noises and I made it my mission in life to stop the alien invaders. I somehow really believed it was real. I would see these shimmering distortions in the shape of humanoids and I would make loud noises at them. I thought I was being attacked everywhere, even at school sometimes. My best friend played along for a while until one day he was like dude, you know this is pretend, right? I stopped to think about it and realized I had invented the whole thing.

I was a strange child
 

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One time on drugs (n-ethyl-hexedrone, a binge lasting 7 days, though I took benzos to sleep a few hours each day... I started smoking it the last day), I skirted the edge of stimulant psychosis. I heard 3 radio stations at once, coming from various objects (the kitchen table, the door to outside, and the stove). No matter where I went, they remained, it was as real as anything, except I knew it was a hallucination. One of them was playing Mexican mariachi music, another was talk radio where they sometimes talking about me ("oh look, he's walking to the pantry"). And the other played the most incredible music I've ever heard. There was also a guy sitting next to me at my desk, writing with a pencil on paper constantly. Once in a while he'd look over at me and crumple his paper sheet and start writing on another. When I looked at right him, he wasn't there. I decided to toss the rest of the hexen (it was almost gone anyway)... I didn't want to slip into not realizing it wasn't real. It was actually a really cool experience.

Another time, the second time I took propylhexedrine, I took two of the cottons (500mg) at work. I drove home (lucky I didn't kill someone; bad me), and the whole drive home I kept lapsing and I'd come to and realize I had been talking to the empty passenger seat, thinking it was my then-girlfriend. I was laughing at her jokes and stuff. It was super weird. I also saw smoke drifting across all dark surfaces. At home, there were shadow figures leaping at me from everywhere. I couldn't pee for a whole day and considered going to the hospital. That was from just the propyl, no sleep deprivation involved.
 

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Oddly enough the only delusional behavior I've had was before I even did drugs.

I remember between 12-15 years old I would get intense delusional paranoia people were creeping around my property at night that wanted to kill me. Being home alone was like full on paranoid state of fear. Lock everything, have knives and weapons ready around the house.. Every time I heard something I'd stop what I was doing and go check it out in the most paranoid ways. Call out hello into the darkness of the night. Sometimes I would lunge a large kitchen knife into every cupboard/closet in the house as I opened the door - just incase someone jumped out as I opened it. Really crazy shit.

Bare in mind I had no reason to fear any of this. I lived in a relatively safe country and neighborhood at that time. It's not like there were news reports of this happening in the area.

None of this continued when I started smoking weed and I've done lots of psychedelics since that have only enhanced me as a human. If anything my trip on mescaline at 16 years old cured me of any fears I had. Especially the dark/night time based fear.
I'm the same with locking everything and having a weapon near me at all times at home, i have done the lunging in the dark too when i felt someone was present (there never has been, well not whilst lunging) To this day i still have to "clear" every room when i come home but i think i have good reason to, this isnt temperory either. Been going on about a decade.
 

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I had that reptilian delusion thing myself too from acid but i was included as a reptile sort of and it was not as if i was threatened by them . It was more like discovering a primitive part of my brain that i was sharing with reptiles where time passes in a different pace . Thats that but nothing negative and people definitely didnt want to eat me . Now, i had other delusions from time to time but coming back i was always able to see the bigger picture and recover to a more chilled state of mind . By the way , how can you believe that people see you as food? I mean there are harder to tell delusions than this . If you cant see this as a delusion what are you gonna do with more credible delusions down the line?
 
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