Mental Health Coming off Invega (paliperidone) injections, v 5.0

[n3ophy7e]

Just started abilify 400mg a few days ago

How are you feeling?

Hello here, this is my first post. I've been watching this and other relative threads about antipsychotics to look for some hope even if i'm quite hopeless actually. Long story short in april 2021 I end up working in this private tattoo studio where they talk about how to control energies, magic, ego, illumination... Everything in there had a second hidden meaning and you could never tell exactly what was happening. This plus thousands other things plus that i was smoking quite a lot weed led me to believe weird things and i started acting delusional and paranoid for few days. My family freaks out on me and call the police, I end up in the hospital against my will (may 19th) where they put me on sleep for like 6 days for who knows what reason and start giving me depakin and abilify pills, then 400 mg abilify injection on june first. In about one day im depressed and social anxious, come out of the hospital two days later diagnosed bipolar.

They tell me i have to be on medication for indefinite amount of time or i will go manic again so i get two more shots of abilify in the next two months (last one August 1st). The next month I refuse having the shot because I'm no longer living since I had the first one. In all psychiatrists' opinions I should have relapsed in no time but guess what I never did and 9.5 months later I still am anedhonic, feel dumb, no creativity and major problem is I can't stay with people cause i can't think of anything to say so i just became asocial. Actually being suicidal cause i see no improvements in my cognitive abilities and I can't live this way, I have lost everything I had without it. Anyone else had a similar situation with abilify maintena and recovered?

Thanks.

Hello and welcome to Bluelight, I'm glad you made your first post here. So sorry to hear you've still not recovered after 9.5 months. Do you do any exercise? What's your diet like?

 

[RiccardoLL!]

How are you feeling?


Hello and welcome to Bluelight, I'm glad you made your first post here. So sorry to hear you've still not recovered after 9.5 months. Do you do any exercise? What's your diet like?

I did some exercise like I went to the gym for a month plus some sporadic biking and running but not much actually... These past few months I'm mostly just staying on my bed on my phone, shame on me. I eat what everybody in my family have, pretty much mediterranean diet so things like pasta, meat, vegetables, normal stuff for italian people..

 

[n3ophy7e]

I did some exercise like I went to the gym for a month plus some sporadic biking and running but not much actually... These past few months I'm mostly just staying on my bed on my phone, shame on me. I eat what everybody in my family have, pretty much mediterranean diet so things like pasta, meat, vegetables, normal stuff for italian people..

Mediterranean diet is very very healthy It would be good if you could perhaps try and at least do some walking each day, more than that if you can (e.g. running, weights etc). The exercise will help speed up your recovery time from the antipsychotics.

 

[MatteM92]

Ho fatto un po' di esercizio come se fossi andato in palestra per un mese, più un po' di ciclismo e corsa sporadici, ma non molto in realtà... In questi ultimi mesi sono rimasto per lo più a letto al telefono, vergogna per me. Mangio quello che hanno tutti nella mia famiglia, praticamente la dieta mediterranea, quindi cose come pasta, carne, verdure, cose normali per gli italiani

Un italiano? Anche te? Qual è la tua storia

 

[MatteM92]

Un italiano? Anche tu? Qual è la tua storia

Riccardo non avevi psicosi? Te lo hanno dato a gratis come me? Abilify dovrebbe essere piu leggero xeplion peggio. Penso passerà anche io sto a letto con debolezza. 10 mesi

 

[RiccardoLL!]

Riccardo non avevi psicosi? Te lo hanno dato a gratis come me? Abilify dovrebbe essere piu leggero xeplion peggio. Penso passerà anche io sto a letto con debolezza. 10 mesi

Ciao, prova a tradurre il primo post che ho scritto, più o meno c'è la mia breve storia li... Comunque non so bene cosa si intenda per psicosi, non avevo di certo allucinazioni visive o uditive ma stavo delirando, credevo di essere controllato o seguito da una serie di persone che si fossero organizzate per tenermi a bada... Un po' difficile da spiegare in effetti ma tralasciamo. Io più che per debolezza sono a letto per mancanza di stimoli, semplicemente non ho voglia di uscire perché non provo più alcun piacere a stare con gli altri dal momento che mi sento inutile...
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Hi, try to translate the first post I wrote, more or less there is my short story there... Anyway I do not know what is meant by psychosis, I wasn't certainly seeing or hearing things but I was delusional, I thought to be watched or followed by a number of people who were organized to keep me silent... a little hard to explain, nevermind. Rather than for weakness I'm in bed for lack of purpose, I just don't go out because I do not feel any pleasure in being with others because I feel useless...

 

[Airwick]

How are you feeling?


Hello and welcome to Bluelight, I'm glad you made your first post here. So sorry to hear you've still not recovered after 9.5 months. Do you do any exercise? What's your diet like?

I'm feeling good, haven't noticed anything too bad yet. Like I've stated before it's mostly sexual dysfunction that's affecting me. I just hope I return to normal when I'm done my community treatment order. I've read from many people that once they switched to abilify their sexual function improved. I used to be addicted to sex and porn before so this really hits me hard and makes me feel suicidal.

 

[Airwick]

I'm hoping my libido and erections come back on abilify. From what I've read there's a chance it will after months or a year

 

[StrawHatLuffy]

@t_xeplionhell How many months since your last injection?
@Bigsmoke420 What in your opinion is the difference between those who recover and those who don’t, assuming they took only a few doses?

 

[Gdvffh]

Hello here, this is my first post. I've been watching this and other relative threads about antipsychotics to look for some hope even if i'm quite hopeless actually. Long story short in april 2021 I end up working in this private tattoo studio where they talk about how to control energies, magic, ego, illumination... Everything in there had a second hidden meaning and you could never tell exactly what was happening. This plus thousands other things plus that i was smoking quite a lot weed led me to believe weird things and i started acting delusional and paranoid for few days. My family freaks out on me and call the police, I end up in the hospital against my will (may 19th) where they put me on sleep for like 6 days for who knows what reason and start giving me depakin and abilify pills, then 400 mg abilify injection on june first. In about one day im depressed and social anxious, come out of the hospital two days later diagnosed bipolar.

They tell me i have to be on medication for indefinite amount of time or i will go manic again so i get two more shots of abilify in the next two months (last one August 1st). The next month I refuse having the shot because I'm no longer living since I had the first one. In all psychiatrists' opinions I should have relapsed in no time but guess what I never did and 9.5 months later I still am anedhonic, feel dumb, no creativity and major problem is I can't stay with people cause i can't think of anything to say so i just became asocial. Actually being suicidal cause i see no improvements in my cognitive abilities and I can't live this way, I have lost everything I had without it. Anyone else had a similar situation with abilify maintena and recovered?

Thanks.

Hey i can relate. I was hearing voices for 2 years but wasnt on any antipsychotics cause i hated the way they made me feel. My parents eventually could tell something was wrong with me and called the cops and sent me to a psych ward. I was given abilify pills and then kne abilify injection so i can get released. I had same symptoms you had, cognitive decline emotional bluntness and anhedonia. After about a year i recovered from the injection so i decided to move out of my parents place and went to a different city and was working at the airport. Then one day 6 months after moving i started hearing voices non stop. I couldnt sleep cause i was hearing voices. My roomate called my parents and told them something is wrong with me. So my dad drove to my place and suggested i come back home for 3 months. I was thinking if its only 3 months its not too bad an idea. So i did move back and shortly after they sent me to a mental hospital again where i got another injection, not abilify and i hsve been a mess since. Long story short. I did recover from the abilify but i ended up in a mental hospital again after that. I regret moving back in with my parents and am mad my roomate called my parents and told them im unwell.

 

[Bigsmoke420]

@t_xeplionhell How many months since your last injection?
@Bigsmoke420 What in your opinion is the difference between those who recover and those who don’t, assuming they took only a few doses?

No difference, I seen people who exercise diet and do all the necessary steps to recover and dont. I'm not saying dont do those things, I'm just saying I've seen people who have done nothing and have a couple of doses and recovered.

 

[RiccardoLL!]

Hey i can relate. I was hearing voices for 2 years but wasnt on any antipsychotics cause i hated the way they made me feel. My parents eventually could tell something was wrong with me and called the cops and sent me to a psych ward. I was given abilify pills and then kne abilify injection so i can get released. I had same symptoms you had, cognitive decline emotional bluntness and anhedonia. After about a year i recovered from the injection so i decided to move out of my parents place and went to a different city and was working at the airport. Then one day 6 months after moving i started hearing voices non stop. I couldnt sleep cause i was hearing voices. My roomate called my parents and told them something is wrong with me. So my dad drove to my place and suggested i come back home for 3 months. I was thinking if its only 3 months its not too bad an idea. So i did move back and shortly after they sent me to a mental hospital again where i got another injection, not abilify and i hsve been a mess since. Long story short. I did recover from the abilify but i ended up in a mental hospital again after that. I regret moving back in with my parents and am mad my roomate called my parents and told them im unwell.

It's messed up that family doesnt even try to do something better instead of calling the cops. So mad at them for the same reason. My father doesnt even regrets after destroying my life like that, he says he would do the same thing...

 

[StrawHatLuffy]

No difference, I seen people who exercise diet and do all the necessary steps to recover and dont. I'm not saying dont do those things, I'm just saying I've seen people who have done nothing and have a couple of doses and recovered.

Wow so not much is under our control, seems like there’s a lot of luck involved and we can only do our best and hope things work out. But you would say that most people recover well right?

 

[t_xeplionhell]

@t_xeplionhell How many months since your last injection?
@Bigsmoke420 What in your opinion is the difference between those who recover and those who don’t, assuming they took only a few doses?

10.5mo.

 

[Ab33]

Why do I seem to hyperventilate from time to time? Since ive been on these ap's its the only thing I do it seems like. It comes from irrational fear I seem to have created during the use of Them idk.

I also experience palpitations from time to time (things which didn't occur before the use of ap's).

I'll try and cease my stim use to see if things go back to normal. Really since it blocked my intelligence I haven't been able to sort out my stress levels/have the congition,motivation,ability to form proper thoughts,etc to handle it. It also seems to increase my ocd x100. Anyone who had the same while on Them?

 

[MatteM92]

Ciao, prova a tradurre il primo post che ho scritto, più o meno c'è la mia breve storia li... Comunque non so bene cosa si intendea per psicosi, non avevo di certo allucinazioni visive o uditive ma stavo delirando, credevo di essere controllato o seguito da una serie di persone che si sono organizzate per tenermi a bada... Un po' difficile da spiegare in effetti ma tralasciamo. Io più che desideri per altri semplicemente sono un piacere uscire per più di mancanza di, non ho voglia di semplicemente perché non provo alcuno a stare con gli momento dal momento che mi sento inutile...
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Ing.
Ciao, prova a tradurre il primo post che ho scritto, più o meno lì c'è il mio racconto... Comunque non so cosa si intende per psicosi, non stavo certo vedendo o sentendo cose ma ero deluso, pensavo essere guardato o seguito da un certo numero di persone organizzate per farmi tacere... un po' difficile da spiegare, non importa. Più che per debolezza sto a letto per mancanza di scopo, semplicemente non esco perché non provo alcun piacere a stare con gli altri perché mi sento inutile...

idem. Sono passati 10 mesi e sembra peggiorare. Fino al mese 4 stavo un po meglio. Uscivo cammianvo un poco. Poi preso covid a novembre non so se c entra ma sono peggiorato. Uso sonniferi e un blando antidepressivo che potrebbe peggiorare dato che li uso di giorno..

 

[MatteM92]

idem. Sono passati 10 mesi e sembra peggiorare. Fino al mese 4 stavo un po meglio. Uscivo cammianvo un poco. Poi preso covid a novembre non so se c entra ma sono peggiorato. Uso sonniferi e un blando antidepressivo che potrebbe peggiorare dato che li uso di giorno..

Te hai notato miglioramenti? Di che regione sei. Abbiamo anche un piccolo gruppo watsup dove ne parliamo nn so se serve. Magari scambiarci i numeri per conoscere meglio la situazione. Di fatto a me lo diedero solo per uno scatto d ira di 5 min

 

[ExStonerExDrinker]

9 mos start to glimmer some negative feelings
12 mos watched a movie and enjoyed it
13 mos felt dopamine & adrenaline from smash bros online
14 mos had an internship was making friends but still very quiet, hard to talk, but starting to feel "recovered"
15 mos started focusing on numerology, news again, tried to medicate with alcohol, psychotic relapse
2 years start to feel the spirit in church again
3 years start to paint again, many new friends, feel as if was never on invega

intelligence came back, I started school at 9 mo ths off and got As. My vocabulary and intuition came fully back, I was completely retarded on invega but I am missing no faculties now

Pills have a milder effect and are much easir to recover from, yes it will take at least a year to recover from injections

Paula10 was on other APs. If you dig into it you will find that the horror stories of thise who never recovered don't share with you that they continue to be on Zyprexa or risperidone etc

The fear and stress of this can drive you mad because there is no good answer. On my second psychosis my brother and friend tried to convince me out if it, and I could see myself wanting to get out of it, but I could not...when you are psychotic everything has a "meaning" , and you can't stop focusing on it any more than a dementia patient can stop having dementia..that's my opinion..I got a lot of help with this question talking it over with my therapist, I had ap pills on hand , I knew I would have to have around 8 over 8 days to break psychosis but a third psychosis never came so I never had to try it

Are you off of antipsychotics? And for how long have you been off

 

[RiccardoLL!]

Te hai notato miglioramenti? Di che regione sei. Abbiamo anche un piccolo gruppo watsup dove ne parliamo nn so se serve. Magari scambiarci i numeri per conoscere meglio la situazione. Di fatto a me lo diedero solo per uno scatto d ira di 5 min

I'm from Rome.
At the physical level I have improved since I stopped the "cure". I was shaking and I was very weak, also full insomnia, I did not sleep a minute for more than three months... As I said the persistent problem is anhedonia and mental ability, creativity, intelligence, responsiveness, memory, language...

Sono di Roma.
A livello fisico si sono migliorato da quando ho smesso la "cura". Avevo tremori ed ero molto debole, inoltre completamente insonne, non ho dormito un minuto per più di tre mesi... Come ho già detto il problema persistente è l'anedonia e le capacità mentali, creatività, reattività, memoria, linguaggio...

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[Airwick]

What if I have pssd from all these medications? I'll kill myself if I can't have a family or intimacy.