Do you regret taking drugs?

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Did someone say they certainly regret taking heroin even if it was only 3 times???
As a heroin addict of nearly 20 years that’s the funniest thing I’ve read in ages.
Jfc

Yep - that was me. Given how violently ill it made me I can’t imagine how I’d ever get addicted to it. Not for want of trying though but after three disgusting puke sessions I gave up. I guess there are uppers people and there are downers people and they can agree to disagree over what’s most delicious.
 

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Yep - that was me. Given how violently ill it made me I can’t imagine how I’d ever get addicted to it. Not for want of trying though but after three disgusting puke sessions I gave up. I guess there are uppers people and there are downers people and they can agree to disagree over what’s most delicious.


You just took too much, start with a weaker opiate.
 

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Weed was the worst. That absolutely WRECKED my life when I was in my 20s. I lost everything, and believe me, it wasn't worth it.

Same. I have been addicted to heroin, crack, alcohol and benzos but if I had to say which drug had the worst effect on me it would be weed (and also benzos).
 

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Is there any particular drug that you wish you never started?

Yes, potent stimulants. I was much more functional before they entered my life. They also distorted my reward pathways and harmed my ability to concentrate, though some of the changes gave me a useful perspective on other issues I had, so there are some swings and roundabouts there.
 

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Is there any particular drug that you wish you never started?

If you could quit drugs all together with ease and no comedown and withdrawrel and be tt clean, would you?

Also..what is your main reoccurring drug?
No regrets in life but i certainly wouldnt choose the same route if given the magical opportunity lol
 

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Yes, potent stimulants. I was much more functional before they entered my life. They also distorted my reward pathways and harmed my ability to concentrate, though some of the changes gave me a useful perspective on other issues I had, so there are some swings and roundabouts there.
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No regrets in life but i certainly wouldnt choose the same route if given the magical opportunity lol
Made the decision to become a heroin addict at the age of 12 [1967] and have been an addict ever since; the 60's, 70's and 80's were a never-ending nightmare. More overdoses than I can possibly count or remember, frequent homelessness, county jails, prisons, old-friends and strangers dying near me or in my arms, etc. you name it. Shot, stabbed, run-over and left for dead too many times. W/o mitigation [Methadone and Bupe] I'd not be here today. My last Methadone Cold W/D almost KILLED me....regrets? I got 'em in bunches and bunches and bunches. One thing's true, I always have been - and always will be- a motherfuckin' junkie...it's with me every day of my life.
 
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I don't regret taking drugs in general, but I regret taking too much drugs. Every day pot I think even becomes a problem whereas a single use of meth or heroin is probably a ok if you can manage to stop there
 

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Opiates because I love them so much and they are extremely hard to get in my country, for me there is nothing that comes close to the feeling oxycodone or heroin gives you.
 

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I feel like I can't be sorry all my life for what I've done, I don't regret having started using drugs, they have all had their good things, although I think I should never have started taking benzos and opiates, maybe a psychedelic in a reckless moment, but benzos and opiates are hell on earth when you're addicted
 

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Made the decision to become a heroin addict at the age of 12 [1967] and have been an addict ever since; the 60's, 70's and 80's were a never-ending nightmare. More overdoses than I can possibly count or remember, frequent homelessness, county jails, prisons, old-friends and strangers dying near me or in my arms, etc. you name it. Shot, stabbed, run-over and left for dead too many times. W/o mitigation [Methadone and Bupe] I'd not be here today. My last Methadone Cold W/D almost KILLED me....regrets? I got 'em in bunches and bunches and bunches. One thing's true, I always have been - and always will be- a motherfuckin' junkie...it's with me every day of my life.
Agreed
 

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I dont regret all of it but I would take it all back if given the chance. Heroin, meth and alcohol have each had their turn at destroying me and the damage they have inflicted definately out ways all the positive drug experiences in my life.

I started using way too young and I thought I knew everything. I chose to be a junkie and had no real understanding because at age 18 I had no reason to fear anything.

Now Im 30 and all the worst parts of my life are results of my addiction. The real shit that drugs take from you are things that cant be seen. It sickens me to even think about what I have done to myself.
 

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I don't think I can honestly regret without knowing what the other road would have been like. Spent a lot of time in the "Rooms" past couple years; have heard lots of folks say how drugs ruined/ wrecked them. Remember quite clearly the day. I woke a scared to death, beat down not lookin ya in the eye little dude. Lay down that night not a care in the world. Drugs let me come out and play. Allowed me to walk among the surface dwellers.
Many forms of addiction, just turn on any screen. Did I choose the most harmful? Will never know. One of my fav authors summed me up pretty well.
Find what you love, and let it kill you.
Let it drain from you your all. Let it cling
onto your back and weigh you down into
eventual nothingness. Let it kill you, and
let it devour your remains.

Morose? Not so. Whatever you do, do it with all you have.
 

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I certainly regret ever fucking with oxy and wish I had just listened to everyone when they told me to stay the fuck away from it.

But aside from that one exception, not really.
  • Benzos help my anxiety, and I did used to be stupid with them especially at university, but that's not the drug's fault. Once I became sensible with my use they became a helpful tool in my life rather than a problem.
  • Weed helps me chill without the negatives of many other drugs, has some good medical properties, and is a far better and safer social lubricant than alcohol.
  • Psychedelics helped me introspect and overcome and accept things in my life. They helped get my life back on track after being severely depressed.
  • MDMA did much the same plus helped me connect with others on a real level I cannot do normally. It also helped me stop being ashamed of who I am.
  • Ketamine, as above, introspection and trippy at higher doses, magical all week anxiety and depression relief from tiny bumps.
  • Amphetamine, not something I'd choose for fun but it really helps me function in day to day life.
  • Cocaine, well I didn't really like it much at all, but nothing especially bad happened and I'm glad I got to try it.
  • Weak opiates like codeine help me just chill out and keep my mind right when my head is in a mess without being too addictive.
Might be missing some stuff on there, but the point is I believe drugs have been a net positive experience in my life and the negatives have been minor (except for the oxy... fuck oxy).

I certainly doubt I'd be the person I am today without drugs, especially in regard to the psychedelic and empathogen experiences - I'd argue those straight up helped saved my life.

Love ya drugs and all those crazy ways you hack the human brain.

P.S. Popped this over to DC since it seems more at home here.
 

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No and no, no question. There is no drug I wish I'd never taken, and I would not "quit drugs" even if I could (which I can, of course, I just choose not to right now ;)).

On the first point - if I didn't take any given drug I would always remain curious about it, and on the second point, I think if you consider this a bit more you'll realise it's an illogical scenario. Obviously if I could quit anything anytime I wanted with no withdrawal then there would be no deterrent to continuing to take anything I chose to take indefinitely - knowing that whenever I did quit, I would experience zero negative aftereffects. I'd argue one of the primary reasons to try to control one's drug use to some extent is that overuse often results in detrimental neurological and physiological adaptations, ergo, withdrawal / "discontinuation syndrome" when you stop taking it. If this was not a problem - then continuous use of any drug would also not be a problem, or at least, it would be far less of a problem, obviously there can still be immediate dangers from the acute effects while under the influence.



EDIT: That said, just because it occurs to me that that "no regrets!" position might require some caveats - if I had a better ability to act rationally at all times, I would do and would have done a whole lot less ketamine, cocaine and alcohol in my life, and would never smoke tobacco again... and probably make a few other changes to my many irrational human tendencies too.
 
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