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Fleischfresser?

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I miss my pot, absolutely miss it,I guess it helped quite a bit with stress 😬 I have smoked since I was 13,and don't see how it's hurt me in anyway,the councilor said people cut stuff in ,and I suppose someone might,but the stuff I got was from a dispensary and it worked for me, apparently helping with stress cuz I'm teary eyed now,more then I want to be that's for sure😞I never shot anything,with fentanyl I was a double patcher and chewer,and yes I have had to have narccan used on me,back when I double patched about 9,yrs ago or so maybe longer but I no it wasn't good,I was on 100ml and I double patched,I lied said I must of forgot to take off the previous blah blah blah,nothing came of it,o.ding wasn't something I cared to think about,and was much more careful after that.im trying to be strong,trying very hard.
 

Fleischfresser?

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Damn it's πŸ₯΅ muggy,we haven't uncovered the air conditioner yet,we will see how it goes,the other day was 79 in here,which isn't bad,unless your busy.i was thinking how old this house is the other nite,built in 1897 and that brought me to ghosts,I have had some pretty spooky to things happen in here and in places when I was small,I wonder if anyone would care to here them or better yet share some?I don't want to prattle on anymore if no one's interested.
 

somnilicious

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I miss my pot, absolutely miss it,I guess it helped quite a bit with stress 😬 I have smoked since I was 13,and don't see how it's hurt me in anyway,the councilor said people cut stuff in ,and I suppose someone might,but the stuff I got was from a dispensary and it worked for me, apparently helping with stress cuz I'm teary eyed now,more then I want to be that's for sure😞I never shot anything,with fentanyl I was a double patcher and chewer,and yes I have had to have narccan used on me,back when I double patched about 9,yrs ago or so maybe longer but I no it wasn't good,I was on 100ml and I double patched,I lied said I must of forgot to take off the previous blah blah blah,nothing came of it,o.ding wasn't something I cared to think about,and was much more careful after that.im trying to be strong,trying very hard.
I so miss my pot. I had to quit after COVID ended so I could keep my methadone take homes. It infuriates me because federal guidelines allow take homes with positive THC but no.... Not our clinic. All the other clinics in town do but ours is the only clinic where you don't have to pay $18 a day. I cheated last month because I had my test right at the beginning of the month and had one the week before that so I had a nice couple of days but I can't chance that again. It's crazy... Even the people with medical cards can't get take homes at our clinic.

Getting narcaned is horrible. I'm afraid to admit the number of times I've had to be narcaned. I even woke up to my dear old father having had to use narcan on me before. I told myself never again and decided to go back on methadone... Again... Sigh...but all is well now. Just started a great new job and I'm making enough to straighten out my credit, LLC my own company and much more now. Things are finally going in my direction for the first time in years.
Damn it's πŸ₯΅ muggy,we haven't uncovered the air conditioner yet,we will see how it goes,the other day was 79 in here,which isn't bad,unless your busy.i was thinking how old this house is the other nite,built in 1897 and that brought me to ghosts,I have had some pretty spooky to things happen in here and in places when I was small,I wonder if anyone would care to here them or better yet share some?I don't want to prattle on anymore if no one's interested.
That is old. I thought my old house built by my grandfather in 1942 was old. Sad to have let that house pass out of the family but our new house is so much bigger and nicer looking with much more property. We sold the old house to some very nice Mexican immigrant family (1st time home owners) that rented out the house next door to us, so it's going to good use.

You can share your ghost stories if you wish. Not sure I believe in that sort of thing. I'm a sceptic. My older sister has all these ghosts stories and swears they're real but she's also prone to hysteronics and loves attention
 

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Yeah our house is old,but she was built well😊we stuck $29.000 into it for windows, siding ,attached garage and roof,the garage was there but the construction guys waited till after hours,and extended the roof so she was one with the house,that was 20 plus yrs ago,since then we have had to put another roof on,it's always something πŸ™ƒ I would love to sell it and move into a apartment or something small,i don't venture upstairs anymore so ?untill he feels the need to sell I'm stuck pretty much.I can understand why people can be sceptic about the paranormal,I've learned a few lessons on this road,such as people thinking others can talk to the dead ect....when I was young I believe that,maybe I will go into some stuff later.
 

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Odie has been on the attack today,he has to be one of the crabbiest bird I ever knew,he also isn't going nite nite like he normally does,last nite he hid away back on his tall cage and blended in with the corn plant pretty tricky ,I never would of knew he was there if he wasn't mine.My Ma had a parakeet that would clean her pot for her,that was back when it was Mexican grown and boy he loved those seeds! Birds are cool but boy they are messy!I'm constantly cleaning behind him!we went to Puerto Rico ,a couple of yrs ago,but didn't get a chance to go up in the forest and check out their birds,sadly I guess they lost a large population due to the hurricane ☹️but man I seen a lot of iguanas,we were feeding them right in the backyard,they would drop out of the tree's with a big slap Lol I love animals❀️ Would anyone like to share thier stories about their pets?We always had a dog,in our 43 yrs together we have had four,Thunder was our first,she was a Australian shepherd,she had one blue eye and one brown,she was a good girl,she would mossy off everyday, I didn't know where to untill one day my Ma told me she would go to her house about 6blocks away and wait at her back door,and Ma would give her a milk bone,lol she also cause a commotion at our kids grammar school lol,she lived to be 14yr old,then we got Rainy and Sadie they were Rottweiler sisters one litter a part,smart as all get out,both passed from cancer 9 months apart☹️last but not least Duke we got him from the humane society,a yellow lab,and huge!just a big teddy bear,but there were a couple people he didn't like,I figured he knew something I didn't,so I went by his feelings,he passed at 10yrs old again cancer,that was the end for me😞the only way I will ever get another dog is if they pick me out.ok I sure do leave long posts,have a good day everyone ❀️
 

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I'm tired and hurting, everyday brings out a little more pain,I gotta get my doctor to prescribe some muscle relaxers,my left leg is always in the state of a impending muscle cramp from the knee to tip of toes😞my hips feel like bone in bone action,oh can't forget the neck and back,what in the hell did I get myself into???I was up at 3:00 am feeling like a Mac truck hit me!Pain makes for a god awful friend!!I asked the councilor if I could split dose,she said she would check into it,I'm praying I can,but my gut tells me it will be a no.i want to go back up to the four Gabapentins,but it seems like they make my heart race??? I'm not sure what to do anymore.i feel so alone.tonite is the lunar eclipse πŸ™‚that's cool,hope I can stay awake for it,I fight dozing all day so by nite I'm exhausted gonna try napping a bit at 6:00for an hour.haveca good day everyone ❀️
 

Painful One

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Hi F.F.
I had a bad night too. Lots of pain all night and today also. I was checking to see if you guys had an increase in pain.
I think the pain increases might be due to things like Lunar Eclipses, Solar Storms, Barometric pressure, Atmospheric
changes.
I pay attention to everything and I mean everything so I can avoid the pain increases and severe migraines.
I have linked it to the above things.
I am taking a pain pill a little early. I need a nap.
I hope things will even out for you and the Methadone will be good. I am sure it will take a little while to adjust to coming off
fentanyl , cannabis, and gabapentin.
That sucks the Methadone has interactions with the Gabapentin and the cannabis.
I know both of those things do help with my mood and pain.
The medical Cannabis works awesome for me when I have these pain increases.

Your stories about your kids and animals had me smiling.
Hang in there.
❀️
P.O
 

Fleischfresser?

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Thankyou painful one,I believe your on to something regarding pain and barometric pressure ect... I to notice increased pain when the pressure rises,I guess gabapentin is supposed to be ok with methadone,I just notice my heart rate increases while taking it,I wish I could puff,and I guess I could but I will never be able to have take homes if I do,I'm also praying I can split the dose,I guess that really helps too for pain.im hanging on lol,but it sure does help to have someone rooting for ya,thankyou, me and my heating pad are hanging in bed,I just took a couple aspirins but am also trying to stay away from them cuz I'm on plavix and I look like a big bruise,lol it's one way to know my blood is thinπŸ™‚I might be back later,take care❀️
 

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I wonder how many of us watched the luner eclipse?I walked my crippled ass out and sat in the yard,I'm always amazed by the heavens 😊I got my husband to come out and watch also,even my son who's hurting pretty badly from his tooth, thankgoodness he got antibiotics his whole side of his face swelled up,and he was running a fever,I always said nothing worse then a toothache☹️every family needs a lawyer, dentist,a good general practitioner,there are a few others but I can't think of any right now😊well I have another councilor appt today I'm supposed to be thinking of some goals lol,I think right now it's too get out of this damn pain.....anyone have some magic dust??? Have a good one,talk again laterπŸ™‚
 

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Did anyone ever do a search on their ancestors?I have one famous character,John Howard,he came over on the mayflower,not one of the original settlers,but the ones that came after the original settlers,he was a servant, anyway he fell off the mayflower during a storm and managed to grab a rope that was trailing behind and got pulled back on,a book was actually written with fantastic illustrations,he went on to have 12kids which is why there are so many ancestors.I bought the book for my grandchildren,maybe they will have show and tell, although I don't ever hear that anymore.I think back to those times and think about how difficult it was to live. I would of been dead by age 36 leaving behind five kids ages 18 to 3yrs old .It's weird to think of things like that. Last nite Odie went to bed a lot better,a bit more nasty but betterπŸ™‚I got to get on with selling my two fish tanks,my 72gallon tank is in great shape and should sell pretty easy,I would love to keep it,and refill with a bunch of fish,but they are a lot of work.i will be keeping it for a bit longer,since Xander loves to sleep in the cupboard section,I will be thinking on it for a while longer.The councilor was wearing a tie dyed t-shirt yesterday that was drop dead beautiful,I guess they do that there,so hopefully I can get involved next time,the nice part is you don't have to even bring in your own shirt or pay for anything 😁pretty damn nice if you ask me.ok I will be back,take care and enjoy your day 😁
 

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Damn hurting real bad again,I'm sure it's the weather causing the added attractions,the temp dropped and it's rainy,feels like it's fallπŸ˜‘ somebody like me belongs in a warm climate year round,air conditioning is even painful πŸ˜– I miss my fentanyl on days like this.Odie has been behaving these past couple of days,lol I'm sure he has something up his feathery sleeve,he went after my husband yesterday πŸ˜† I can laugh cuz it wasn't me.i guess someone might ask why he has such freedom,I won't lock him up cuz that's why he is the way he is today,I couldn't imagine being locked up for years,plus abused, people make me sick,I only cage him when it's dangerous for him,like when my daughter pops in with her fury friend dog,she is a hunting breed and makes no question about the fact that she would pluck Odie out of thin air. I sometimes wonder who would take him when I die,lol there are not a lot of raised hands in that department,lol,I think my son would take him, πŸ€”oh well I guess we cross that bridge when the time comes.
 

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Well the damn bird had me doing the jig this morning!I woke up a little later then usual and like everyone else in the world had to go potty,my hips and legs were just grinding and my eyes half open,so off to the bathroom I go,I was looking down,that was my first big mistake,not thinking at all about Odie, second mistake,well son of a bitch who comes flying down,Odie of course!damn near pissed myself!What a little asshole 😑,once he hit the ground he started with the I'm gonna get you routine!Xander our cat was sitting in the dining room watching,lol probably thinking better you then me,why?Odie has kept up with his anger issues for the three years we have had him I don't know.After I went to the methadone clinic I went in search of cat food,good luck Irene! I think I will go to fleet farm later.And this formula shortage has my son in-law driving miles to find!That is so scary!I can't help but wonder what in the hell is really going on?Well I tell ya this woman isn't gonna go anywhere today without one of Odie's ropes in my handπŸ˜‘have a good one everyone!
 

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Today started out really nice,the nurses at the methadone clinic gave me a birthday card with two bite size Hershey bars! Which I never expected,😁came home and Odie was doing his mating call singing,I would try and hook him up with a female but there are too many homeless birds already.Zander cats is giving me worries,he has gotten even more fussy on his wet food but will eat dry food,which is fine with me but he pukes the crap up a couple hours later,I'm not sure what to do,if anyone has any ideas let me know ok,.maybe it's time to let him go,I'm just not sure.There will be no more inside animals for me,I'm sure Odie will outlive me as long as he doesn't get any funny ideas about flying away from home.
 

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I think there is some sort of conspiracy going on here,Odie went missing,so I'm calling for him,off our kitchen there is our back hallway which leads to the basement,so I'm calling for him back there,out of the cluttered shelf come Odie,and he flew straight for me and get this landed on my friggin finger,I of course panicked,1st I didn't see him 2nd he landed on my finger!never ever has he done this,so I immediately thought he was gonna chew the hell out of my finger!so I shook him offπŸ˜–lol I had a great birthday 😁well that's about it,take care folks😁
 

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Not sure if this was the last post from me or not ,so excuse me if I messed up again☹️I been watching the horrible news regarding the children in Texas ☹️I'm not a real religious person,but the devil was on his move and the damn police were had him whispering in their ear,so sad and sick.! We had a very weird day Friday,my son's back went out so he's been on the couch ,our daughter is moving so my husband was off with her trying to get most of the smaller stuff over to her new place and me,well I was in the bathroom when someone started rapping at our door,our son tried to get up and answer it,but he got struck with a huge spasm which caused him to scream out in pain, meanwhile I'm going as fast as possible to get my pants up,I get the hell out and my son is on his knees holding on to the couch,and the person at the door starts rapping again like someone died!I open the fing door and who's standing there???my husband ex wife!!!!she was married to him for ,,7 yrs and me 43 yrs,they had 3 children together,and the shit she did was God awful,stealing the three of them and changing there their names when she enrolled them in school,she got away with it cuz it was in 1980!He the new husband was abusive to the two older children I believe because they looked like daddy and knew what there last name was!the youngest looked nothing like the older two and the bitch managed to convince him he was his child,that was untill he was 7 and our oldest son met in the parking lot and he was there,they our son and his son with her looked like twins!anyways here she was looking for pot!!! Looking for fing pot! I of course said nope knew no one couldn't help!what as ballsy bitch!!there is a story I could tell you folks that would be funny as hell now,so she leaves her phone number should my husband know of anyone that could help,all she wanted was a half bag,a half bag!!!at the very least I would of been looking for a quarter pound!but this is my life,twisted and confusing ! should anyone want to hear more about the twisted ass snake let me know, otherwise have as great day,and take we care😁
 

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I have not posted in a while about life and all that goes with it ,I have this week to decide if my dose is high enough I'm currently taking 60 ml of methadone,I think it's enough...πŸ€”but hate the idea that I will be locked in at that amount,I guess I will just have to trust in myself.A couple of days ago I was doing dishes ,our neighbors Jerry and his 40 plus year old son were outside staring at our house as usual, with their two dogs that bark at every little movement or sound,Jerry got up and went behind his shed and took a piss,now grant it I couldn't see nothing but his yellow stream hitting the rock pavement,as soon as he put it all away his son went back there and faced my house and brought his junk out and started pissing!That was just too much for me I have a 8 and 5 yr old granddaughters that come over and would of seen it all!I called the cops and their reply was can u prove it was intentional! What the hell I always thought peeing in public was against the law ,so they are not going to respond.😑Then last night,our grandson was coming home from work,he is 19 and works at A+W it was a little after 10:00 pm and a group of five boys around his age,started up with some racial slurs and a fight broke out between our grandson and one of them that lasted about all of seconds before the other four were throwing him to the ground ect..this all happening at the end of our street,when he got home his eye was bleeding and his wrist is all messed up the cops responded and told us that he can press assault charges but they also can,since he fought back!!! apparently the day of protecting yourself is over!We lived here 37yrs but now that some of the houses turned into rentals nasty shit has be begun!I told my husband we gotta sell,and this morning he finally agreed πŸ‘β€οΈ I'm gonna have to start preparing for a sale and packing which is gonna be hell,!but I have time lots of time!😁
 

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Hello everyone,I damn near died this past Monday the 13th of June😞I think I had mentioned that I didn't think the methadone was not agreeing with me,and as the last days of may and June passed by it became more noticeable,I was getting more and more tired as days went by and was sleeping more and more after my dose every day,it was reminding me of a post where it was mentioned that methadone works if you don't mind sleeping your time away,my highest dose was 60ml and held there till the 13 the of June ,the only other drugs I was taking was my heart meds and trazodone and gabapentin,trazadone at150 mg,so that was 200 mg a night and the gabapentin was four 600 mg everyday then went to three 600 mg,well on the 13th I fell asleep at around ,3:00 pm and woke at like 6:00 pm to my husband and son yelling at me ,and slapping my feet,my son also administered narcan,to say it was a nightmare is understating it my 100 fold,it was like a acid trip my stomach kept contracting,there was no calming down they both had left the bedroom and went out on our porch to have a cig,that's when my heart took off beating and missing beats like some crazed machine,that's when I started screaming for my husband,telling him I'm fucking dieing ,he then called 911,my heart then went into arrithme and was beating at 190 per min,from there I don't remember much,I guess they had to stop it then shock it , something that my old heart was lucky to recover from, the hospital dropped my dose to 50ml,and cut my GABA in half and trazadone to half,but couldn't give me a answers as to why it happened,said they were not experts in that field πŸ€”πŸ˜’the meth doc said it not young anymore and felt it was too he compo of the gab as methadone and trazadone,but why it waited till June 13 to have this happen was a mystery,I can't even think about what happened without crying.i personally don't think dropping ten ml of methadone isn't enough...and have a appointment Monday to talk about dropping it some more...I'm praying someone on hear might have a better explanation ,how is it I was doing everything correct and this happened.im not a religious person but god bless all of you and I know someone was in my corner besides my husband ,son and doctor.🌹
 

Painful One

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Wow FF. I am really sorry to hear what happened. I had a feeling I needed to come check on you and I read what happened with your heart.
I also think it is the combination of medication.
You are going through a period of instability. It is going to take awhile to get to a stable condition again. Be very careful during this time as we do NOT want to lose you. Don’t mess around. Stick to the lowest dosage possible of everything and just fight to get stability back.

I have had pneumonia and have been really sick myself. I am just starting to feel better now but I am very tired.
I have to take it easy for awhile. I have never had problems breathing before and it has been horrible.

I hope you feel better soon. I send my best wishes, love, and support.
You are right that there was something (someone’s) in your corner besides your family members.
You came close to death.
Be well FF.
Love you.
P.O.
 

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FF, take it SLOW!! I know how frightening it is to be "Out of Control of our bodies!!" We all feel that we are in Charge, but we are NOT. There is a Very Complex Balancing act going on between our body, HP, and substances we take in, we are what we Eat, or Drink.
I took me a long while to Accept the need for Chemo, and Radiation, No matter what the side effects where or Are!! We can not crash [Up or Down] on strong drugs or Combinations of drugs, remember that Alcohol is one of the Most powerful drug available.
I hope that you are seeing a Cardiologist ?
I do not know your feeling on the Vaccine, but if you have taken the JJ one shot version, Please get checked out!! It is causing some very limited heart troubles:(
 

FlippedFaith

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Hello everyone,I damn near died this past Monday the 13th of June😞I think I had mentioned that I didn't think the methadone was not agreeing with me,and as the last days of may and June passed by it became more noticeable,I was getting more and more tired as days went by and was sleeping more and more after my dose every day,it was reminding me of a post where it was mentioned that methadone works if you don't mind sleeping your time away,my highest dose was 60ml and held there till the 13 the of June ,the only other drugs I was taking was my heart meds and trazodone and gabapentin,trazadone at150 mg,so that was 200 mg a night and the gabapentin was four 600 mg everyday then went to three 600 mg,well on the 13th I fell asleep at around ,3:00 pm and woke at like 6:00 pm to my husband and son yelling at me ,and slapping my feet,my son also administered narcan,to say it was a nightmare is understating it my 100 fold,it was like a acid trip my stomach kept contracting,there was no calming down they both had left the bedroom and went out on our porch to have a cig,that's when my heart took off beating and missing beats like some crazed machine,that's when I started screaming for my husband,telling him I'm fucking dieing ,he then called 911,my heart then went into arrithme and was beating at 190 per min,from there I don't remember much,I guess they had to stop it then shock it , something that my old heart was lucky to recover from, the hospital dropped my dose to 50ml,and cut my GABA in half and trazadone to half,but couldn't give me a answers as to why it happened,said they were not experts in that field πŸ€”πŸ˜’the meth doc said it not young anymore and felt it was too he compo of the gab as methadone and trazadone,but why it waited till June 13 to have this happen was a mystery,I can't even think about what happened without crying.i personally don't think dropping ten ml of methadone isn't enough...and have a appointment Monday to talk about dropping it some more...I'm praying someone on hear might have a better explanation ,how is it I was doing everything correct and this happened.im not a religious person but god bless all of you and I know someone was in my corner besides my husband ,son and doctor.🌹
What FF your last post really scared me. I read Damm near all of your posts for the last hour. But I decided to skip to this page and reply to you when I read your last post. Idk why it happened on June as opposed to any other day. But I do know gapapentin can make your methadone hit harder. I know because I would use methadone and pregabalin. Aka lyrica..it would make me feel fantastic but it can also be scary. And when You were asking if methadone would help with your pain. I would say yes but only for the first 12 hours. Any pain after you would need something to break thru that. I hope you keep us updated. Also I wish you would of kept looking for a pain doctor willing to actually help your pain.. but looking for a pain management doc is a nightmare I bet but what's the alternative ? I believe the reason your fentanyl dosage dropped from 50mcl to 25. Was because she was not confident you needed the 50 but I'm assuming here...That pain doc was.no good either way. I have to say I bonded with you just by reading your posts and the replys by painful one and all the others. I will keep you in my prayers. God bless you
 
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