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In Memoriam Captain.Heroin

I have confirmed this with family. CaptainHeroin, who has been a senior moderator here for so long, has recently passed away from a tragic OD. He has helped me for very many years with harm reduction, along with countless others. He helped me laugh when no one else could. It is with great sadness I announce this to the BL community. I am weeping.
 
Wish you a journey full of love Captain!

You've done your part here. See you on the other side....I guess...
I'm sorry for the loss of the family.....just remember....is called LIFE and is just a moment in eternity. A drop in an ocean.

I myself lost a dear friend also from OD on heroin. Yesterday i was on he's funeral to say goodbye.
A month earlyer, another dear friend....
And before this, a few months earlyer, another....
Sometimes I wonder who's next....but i always remember I don't really want to know...just live the present moment.
We suffer just to be able to enjoy small things that make us happy. Otherwise we just can't enjoy happyness.

Wish you an enlighteen journey Captain! Much Love!
 
You made such a dramatic exit.
If life is a stage then you are still that superstar ! ☄⚡
Still missing that Captain though. ♡
 
I was reading our old discord messages today and got hit on the feelz

Damn and fucking fucking fucking fucking fuck this shit.

 
Captain, I remember how you like OREO's. 😉
And things were sweet.
And how you would make me smile.

You are missed. 💐🌹

💔

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Wow... I can't believe that.

I know. :(

I don't know the exact day he died, for some reason I have April 30 in my head but I couldn't tell you where I got that from. But I know I found out around 11pm on May 6 my time. So very nearly 6 months. That was a tough night. :(

It's still hard to believe he's gone. Occasionally I'll read some of the discord or bluelight conversations I had with him, and some parts of it are very surreal.

I'm not sure I can really think of anyone else I've ever known who was quite like him.
 
I know. :(

I don't know the exact day he died, for some reason I have April 30 in my head but I couldn't tell you where I got that from. But I know I found out around 11pm on May 6 my time. So very nearly 6 months. That was a tough night. :(

It's still hard to believe he's gone. Occasionally I'll read some of the discord or bluelight conversations I had with him, and some parts of it are very surreal.

I'm not sure I can really think of anyone else I've ever known who was quite like him.
I am still trying to believe that this is how it is going to be now. That this has to be real. I really am. Thank you @JessFR. Thank you. ☹ 💗. Um. 😭
Yes. I miss the @Captain.Heroin so much ! ♡
I didn't know this could be like this.
 
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Was just going threw our chat history..fuck I miss you.

I wish I could read your book..I wish a lot of things. I wish you would just come back..

I hope your in peace Andrew. 💫💙💫
 
Was just going threw our chat history..fuck I miss you.

I wish I could read your book..I wish a lot of things. I wish you would just come back..

I hope your in peace Andrew. 💫💙💫
There’s some files somewhere in digital. Just can’t be released or whatever. buyable but extremely expensive.
 
@Captain.Heroin Andrew.
There will never be anyone like you again. You helped to teach me words. I will never forget you for that or I will never stop to keep on trying.

You helped me with encouragement to be able to try and to learn words and inspirations.

BL will never be the same again EVER I feel.
You always helped. If and when possible you would ! You never ever did less than that for ALL of us and others. You were amazing. I am still trying to be out of the shock of this and all.

You were sincere. You treated every one EQUAL. You did so much for me because of who you were and what and how you represented. You grew with BL and helped us grow. Even in the older years. You grew also. You kept us all moving forward and grounded.

Captain my head hurts and it IS maddening.

Thank you for representing what help should be. I try not to write to you everyday but I do want to everyday. I wish to be able to write with genius like you. ☺ You had good teachings somehow. Educated so formally and proper. What a privilege yet you could always stay humble somehow. You were the Great role model when necessary and when needed, Always !

You were kind to everyone even when you didn't have to be. Including me. It was such an amazing time to know you and that was such a gift. Now you are gone even though it is still difficult to accept.

Somehow I feel your soul. And I doubt that you will ever be forgotten !

Rest Captain. You are in our hearts and thoughts and those days will always be missed when you were here. ♡🕊 Those days of Captain.H.

I feel bad today but I do feel good for being able to know you.
 
Your posts always made me laugh, you were quite an odd guy, very emotional and dark at times but I could feel you tried your best to keep those demons at bay. Wherever you are mate, I hope you're finally at peace.
We all miss you dear brother.
I send you much love Andrew.
 
I have confirmed this with family. CaptainHeroin, who has been a senior moderator here for so long, has recently passed away from a tragic OD. He has helped me for very many years with harm reduction, along with countless others. He helped me laugh when no one else could. It is with great sadness I announce this to the BL community. I am weeping.
😭
 
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