I'm doing great. It's day 5 for me as well. I'm also looking forward to a Christmas free of a hard drugs. I say that because I believe my psychadelic use has definitely been beneficial. I don't feel dead inside like I usually do when I quit heroin. I am probably going to start microdosing LSD for paws and depression. I took a quarter hit of low dose acid the other day and I was impressed by how ingaged in life I felt. Everything sparkled with a fullfiling sense of love and magic and this lasted well into the next few days.
I have been a heroin addict for 20yrs and I have been doing different versions of sobriety and this every few days use of heroin for the last 3. I just can't seem to escape and my mindset was getting worse. I needed these psychadelic experiences. I have to do something drastic. Some people take Bupe or methadone but I already drank the pink juice for 10yrs. I want to be totally free of opiates because they dull me and make me apathetic. Microdosing is my new experiment. To answer your question Rio.. No , psyches aren't making me use. It is actually quite the opposite. Pot however is a slippery slope.
@chinup... Sorry to hear that you're having such a hard time. I absolutely adore you Chinup and I wish I could say something to make your life more fullfiling. I totally remember how I felt at a year clean and it was rough. Everyone told me to hang on and that the phase would pass. I see all the people who toughed it out and now have great lives, full of friends, success, activities and joyous freedom and I get so mad at myself for giving in and deconstructing all the forward progress I made and making my situation so much worse. Hang in there. It always gets worse when you go back ❤❤❤
After 20yrs of this bullshit and the infinite PAWS.. It is time to do something different. I am excited about life and I am definitely going to microdosed to give me the push to reframe and change my life. I'm tired of this opiated hell... Love u guys. Stay strong and keep your Chinup...lol...
@Rio Fantastic... Congrats on overcoming the sudden influx of cash craving. Those are difficult in early recovery... I'm glad I have a new time partner to share sobriety with.
Us 3 have to stick together. There is power in #'s. I am so glad that you are both back. Stay!! We can do this... Fuck heroin.