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☮ Social ☮ PD Social Talk Thread: If 2020 Was the Dumpster, Can 2021 Be the Fire?

TripSitterNZ

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i unlocked something deep last night, i have learnt the language of the mushrooms i was sitting there in silence darkness tripping mad fucking balls with some good weed and 2 grams of these potent shrooms. Suddenly i was automatically reciting some strange language or singing expect it wasen't human it was the language of fungi and plants with that i sung to mother nature like i was some type of shaman and was taken some deep into this other mushroom land the more i sung this strange languange. It sounded like those ayahusaca icaros. The languange of plants is real folks! this was a major breakthrough and it blew my fucking mind holy fuck!
 

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holy fuck, it also details all the physical illnesses LSD will protect you from. This shit is a mircale drug and pharmas best kept secert.
So....You make me think then that it must be the best medicine for me so it's OK the amount I've taken already tonight I don't need to be asking myself if it's wrong I just trust that it's all for the best in the long run.

Interesting.
 

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Psychotic patients, especially schizophrenics, are more resistant to the psychologic and hallucinogenic (though not necessarily to the somatic) effects of LSD than mentally normal or neurotic individuals (STOLL, 1947, 1952; CONDRAU, 1949; BECKER, 1949; BUSCH and JOHNSON, 1950; FORRER and GOLDNER, 1951; RINKEL et a!., 1952; HOCH et a!., 1952; ARNOLD and HOFF, 1953 a, and many others). With sufficiently high doses, however, an increase in psychomotor activity and verbal exteriorization may be obtained even in stuporous schizophrenics, and patients with mania may become greatly excited. LSD often accentuates the preexisting emotional state, so that melancholic patients become still more depressed and manic patients still more euphoric (CONDRAU, 1949; SLOANE and LOVETT DousT, 1954). Psychiatric patients are usually able to distinguish between the drug-induced and their usual hallucinations. In neurotic patients, especially when applied in connection with analytic psychotherapy, LSD may produce very conspicuous disinhibiting effects, and thus greatly
 

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A striking case of intoxication in a 2-year-old boy who ingested the huge amount of 180llg/kg LSD has been described by SAMUELSSON (1974): After an initial phase of extreme excitability with ataxia and mydriasis, the child, without loosing consciousness, went into a state of total catatonia which lasted for about 4 h. Laboratory investigations as well as ECG and EEG remained normal; recovery was uneventful and there were no lasting sequela
 

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How many kg's does an average 2 year old weigh? 25? Lol maybe 15.

Lot of 180 ug tabs anyhow.

I Wouldn't do it.
 

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It was only 1500 mics end. But 42 in week, 92 1/2 in 20 days I think.

Not to bad. Just thank God I haven't actually got my own liquid after all because I dread to think the rash things I might go in the spur of the moment when really not fancying eating large amounts of paper anymore is the final deter and impractical and palatable sense.

So I've realised that by having my LSD safely laid.on paper is the safest place for me personally to have access to it.
 

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So. Very big incident out of blue here.

The biggest by miles ever argument with my mum.

Can't do details now. I hurt possibly broke my right hand on a hard object, not doe anything like that in years. It's escalated and escalated to pretty much full blown war I've now barricaded my bedroom door because my mum was aggressively insisting on coming in and taking all of my Etizolam.

No way. My nervous system is dangerously sensitised towards her she can't understand this and I really can't help it so the thought of letting her into my own not even safe space any longer she's absolutely fuming and puffing in blinding red wine last night rage trying to force the door down no way right now.

Focus is fading because I took a 15 mg dose of Etizolam just to stop me trembling in despair at the realisation that there is no way to reconcile this situation at the moment unless there is some kind of miracle.

I took that big dose of it is and it's relaxed my other boys extreme panic state but also made me very sleepy so I'll have to leave this because it's not doing justice to the extreme of tea of the situation.

Sorry I can't add more context but I really hurt my right hand and I can hardly keep focus at the moment from the benzo dosage.

Call it's trouble for the moment though because of never been in quite such and no way out no my back feeling situation in my life and I'm sure my mum has not either and so many things were said by her which made it clear to me there is no way to repair this situation now.
 

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So. Very big incident out of blue here.

The biggest by miles ever argument with my mum.

Didn't have much time but wanted to respond. A couple of points to make note of. People fight when they need to create space. It is the verbal equivalent to shoving someone to get space.

Second, if someone is drunk that is no time to argue. As you see it disrupts the peace. lol If your mom drinks to excess then you need to find a better place to live. Not easy living with heavy drinkers. If it was just one occassional night then she deserves that for herself.

Third, it will blow over. Let your mum cool off. and you lay down and get some rest AT.

Sounds like this was brewing good while. I mean I feel for both you and your mom. I suspect your mom is my age or younger. It is not easy trying to make ends meet in this hard life we live. I totally get it.

Do not let her confiscate all your etizolam AT. Find a better way to stash. That is threatenting torture however it sounds like she is not happy about that use under her roof.
All of these things just mean they are clamoring for your attention. You have a relationship with your mum that needs addressing and your relationship with substances that needs addressing too. Whatever it is you are looking for with all the acid you do not seem to be finding. So backing off will help for some balance.

Here is the deal with gobbling more and more acid. Ram Dass (when he was Richard Alpert) said in the prt 1 of Be Here Now this:

"At one point we took 5 people and locked ourselves in a building for 3 weeks and we took 400 mcgs of LSD every 4 hours. That is 2400 mcg a day, which sounds fancy but after your first dose you build a tolerance. There is a refractory period. We finally were just drinking it out of the bottle as it did not matter anymore. We were very high. What happened in those 3 weeks no one would ever believe including us. After 3 weeks we walked out of the house and within a few days we came down!"

The stories of Nick Sand and Owsley and living in a house where it is made. They all said you are always high. But most will tell you it is a waste. And now AT, you have the experience to know some of that yourself. Take a year off you will be surprised how well it can work again and give insight.

Stay well brother I have to be traveling a little this week so I figured I'd give you some advice before I left. I imagine a post like one you left was to inform us and maybe get some insight. My insight for today, stay away from your mum, no arguing, lay down and get rest even if it is watching a movie and for God sakes make sure you stash some of your etizolam. You already know you can't just stop taking it. Slow and steady. :)
 
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Hey AT, I'm sorry about this big blowout. First of all, read JackARoe's post, it's good stuff.

Secondly, I think you should take this opportunity to sleep since you're drowsy and being on a bunch of benzos (and your mom being drunk) is not a good situation in which to try to face each other. It will only result in more damage.

Thirdly, it sounds like there is some stuff to talk about when you and your mom are both sober. You have made reference to another fight with her before. Now I don't know your situation at all, but I have some guesses (which may or may not have any basis in reality). Don't let her try to force you into something you are not or attribute qualities to you that she is projecting, or make you feel like less than you are. That said, she probably has some valid concerns and you should try to listen to her and see if there are things you can improve about your living situation with her. And perhaps about yourself too. You're a lovely fellow but everyone should always be on a road to self-improvement, that never ends.

Lastly, please see a doctor about your hand, if it gets worse. I punched a refrigerator in a fight with my ex wife, and broke it. Had to get a splint and stuff. The specialist wanted to put titanium rods in my hand but I turned that down, but I definitely did need to see a doctor to get the splint. Not only does it help to stabilize it, it will help you not to accidentally use it and make the damage worse.
 
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