ValaisFendant
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- Aug 4, 2019
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Hi all -
Just sharing a personal story, not really asking any questions.
I was a heavy opioid user for about 3 years, peaking at 500mg+ of daily oxy (originally to deal
with back pain, but then it became psychological as well). Despite the impacts to libido and digestive system and emotional control, I wouldn't have stopped on my own.
About 18 months ago I got a wake up call from
the postal inspector, and started to taper down to 80mg a day, which I found difficult. Felt off kilter every day.
About 12 months ago I moved primarily to suboxone (and was very careful to use the minimum needed out of the gate... within a few days, I found 2mg was enough). I mixed suboxone and opiates for awhile, but for several
months it has been almost only suboxone.
Flash forward to a couple weeks ago. I was taking a little bit of a lot of things. Including suboxone, clonazepam, gabapentin, and poppy seed tea. And I have decided to move on from as much of them as I can, because I am tired of being tired and groggy all the time.
For context, we are talking 1.5mg suboxone, 600mg gabapentin (sporadic use... some days more, many days zero), and 0.25mg clonazepam (never more than 0.5mg), and poppy seed tea maybe 2x a week using 300-400gm of seeds
Two weeks ago I stopped the poppy seed tea. Four days ago, I stopped clonazepam and gabapentin cold turkey. And I've also reduced suboxone to 1.2 mg/day.
And... I feel FINE. The only comfort med I'm using is clonidine, to help with anxiety and sleep... and only 0.1mg/day spread across two doses.
So - that means right now all I am taking is 1.2mg suboxone and 0.1mg clonidine. And I have quit the other three other substances all at once.
I read all of these horror stories about multi-year gabapentin withdrawal, and brain zapping and crippling anxiety from low dose clonazepam withdrawal. And poppy seed withdrawal being worse than pills are. And ... for me... it's just not happening.
I have no meaningful withdrawal symptoms, I just still feel the "groggy and tired and foggy" that I have felt for the last few years... and hopefully that will fade too.
Perhaps it's too early, but I'm pretty hopeful that in a couple of weeks, I will be down to 1.0mg of suboxone and have everything else cleared from my system including clonidine. (the suboxone is for chronic pain... it's way better for pain than high dose opioids, depending on the nature of your pain).
And then let the suboxone drift lower until the pain returns, and just hang out there at the threshold (i would love to be down to 0.5mg/day, or lower, if my body allows it)
The opana and oxy were dreadful to quit. But so far, everything else is going well. Maybe it's just too early, but I am feeling better now, not worse.
Don't forget how good clonidine can be. It lowers your blood pressure, and for me, that means reduced anxiety, better sleep.
The bottom line here is - just because a lot of people have horrible stories about kicking low doses of gaba and benzos, that doesn't mean it works the same way for everyone. People are more likely to post their horror stories here, than positive surprises.
I just want to feel "normal" again and I know it will take time, but the path to getting there doesn't feel scary, for the first time in several years.
Just sharing a personal story, not really asking any questions.
I was a heavy opioid user for about 3 years, peaking at 500mg+ of daily oxy (originally to deal
with back pain, but then it became psychological as well). Despite the impacts to libido and digestive system and emotional control, I wouldn't have stopped on my own.
About 18 months ago I got a wake up call from
the postal inspector, and started to taper down to 80mg a day, which I found difficult. Felt off kilter every day.
About 12 months ago I moved primarily to suboxone (and was very careful to use the minimum needed out of the gate... within a few days, I found 2mg was enough). I mixed suboxone and opiates for awhile, but for several
months it has been almost only suboxone.
Flash forward to a couple weeks ago. I was taking a little bit of a lot of things. Including suboxone, clonazepam, gabapentin, and poppy seed tea. And I have decided to move on from as much of them as I can, because I am tired of being tired and groggy all the time.
For context, we are talking 1.5mg suboxone, 600mg gabapentin (sporadic use... some days more, many days zero), and 0.25mg clonazepam (never more than 0.5mg), and poppy seed tea maybe 2x a week using 300-400gm of seeds
Two weeks ago I stopped the poppy seed tea. Four days ago, I stopped clonazepam and gabapentin cold turkey. And I've also reduced suboxone to 1.2 mg/day.
And... I feel FINE. The only comfort med I'm using is clonidine, to help with anxiety and sleep... and only 0.1mg/day spread across two doses.
So - that means right now all I am taking is 1.2mg suboxone and 0.1mg clonidine. And I have quit the other three other substances all at once.
I read all of these horror stories about multi-year gabapentin withdrawal, and brain zapping and crippling anxiety from low dose clonazepam withdrawal. And poppy seed withdrawal being worse than pills are. And ... for me... it's just not happening.
I have no meaningful withdrawal symptoms, I just still feel the "groggy and tired and foggy" that I have felt for the last few years... and hopefully that will fade too.
Perhaps it's too early, but I'm pretty hopeful that in a couple of weeks, I will be down to 1.0mg of suboxone and have everything else cleared from my system including clonidine. (the suboxone is for chronic pain... it's way better for pain than high dose opioids, depending on the nature of your pain).
And then let the suboxone drift lower until the pain returns, and just hang out there at the threshold (i would love to be down to 0.5mg/day, or lower, if my body allows it)
The opana and oxy were dreadful to quit. But so far, everything else is going well. Maybe it's just too early, but I am feeling better now, not worse.
Don't forget how good clonidine can be. It lowers your blood pressure, and for me, that means reduced anxiety, better sleep.
The bottom line here is - just because a lot of people have horrible stories about kicking low doses of gaba and benzos, that doesn't mean it works the same way for everyone. People are more likely to post their horror stories here, than positive surprises.
I just want to feel "normal" again and I know it will take time, but the path to getting there doesn't feel scary, for the first time in several years.