staudri
Bluelighter
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- Sep 6, 2003
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hrmmm....
the biggest surprise... i dont like smoking weed anymore !!!! (WTF!) i just dont dig it, id rather play with him.
and he got his shots today (3 seperate HUGE needles) and that was the hardest thing ive ever had to cope with. cause he was lookin at me and i had to hold his legs down and when she stuck it in his eyebrows went all the way up to his hairline and his eyes got as big as quarters, it took a few seconds for it to register as pain , but once it did damn..... i cried (ps- hes fine now tho)
you get used to being tired, it hardly even bothers me anymore. and when all else fails , i just tell myself (2 thousand times) that he has to sleep SOMETIME and i will eventually get a nap, but when i talk to him and he laughes at me , i forget about how exausted i am
yes, i do feel different, being as my main objective is not getting fucked up...its makin sure hes happy and has everything he needs, and another biggie is you really learn not to sweat the small stuff, and keep your priorities in check i.e. someones talkin shit about me ...a year ago id get all fired up and pissed off and try and fight somebody , whereas now, WHO THE HELL CARES ??? petty high school shit has disappeared ( remember i AM 17 )
actually im VERY lucky, i have not 1 streach mark on my belly , i have a roll , but it goes away when i stand up...my tits sag and are flat ontop without a bra , and they kinda migrate to my armpits when i lay down ... and theyre ridden with streach marks ( i went from an A cup to a DD cup when my milk came in , and now im a droopy B ) my ass is nicer and plump ( you see, before i looked like a 12 yr. old boy, so any figure is a good one to me) and i never had any zits before and now i have probably 4 at any given time, but i dont care, because i look at some girls 2 months after giving birth and i thank my lucky stars
lol, i get sudden random urges to scoop him up and gust squeez and kiss til i cant anymore , he makes me happier than i have EVER been , and he never fails to put me in a good mood , no matter how shitty a day i have. i love him more than i ever thought human emotion was capable of...if that makes sense
*sigh* so precious , when i het my 12 rolls of film developed ill post some pix
luv u all !
the biggest surprise... i dont like smoking weed anymore !!!! (WTF!) i just dont dig it, id rather play with him.
and he got his shots today (3 seperate HUGE needles) and that was the hardest thing ive ever had to cope with. cause he was lookin at me and i had to hold his legs down and when she stuck it in his eyebrows went all the way up to his hairline and his eyes got as big as quarters, it took a few seconds for it to register as pain , but once it did damn..... i cried (ps- hes fine now tho)
you get used to being tired, it hardly even bothers me anymore. and when all else fails , i just tell myself (2 thousand times) that he has to sleep SOMETIME and i will eventually get a nap, but when i talk to him and he laughes at me , i forget about how exausted i am
yes, i do feel different, being as my main objective is not getting fucked up...its makin sure hes happy and has everything he needs, and another biggie is you really learn not to sweat the small stuff, and keep your priorities in check i.e. someones talkin shit about me ...a year ago id get all fired up and pissed off and try and fight somebody , whereas now, WHO THE HELL CARES ??? petty high school shit has disappeared ( remember i AM 17 )
actually im VERY lucky, i have not 1 streach mark on my belly , i have a roll , but it goes away when i stand up...my tits sag and are flat ontop without a bra , and they kinda migrate to my armpits when i lay down ... and theyre ridden with streach marks ( i went from an A cup to a DD cup when my milk came in , and now im a droopy B ) my ass is nicer and plump ( you see, before i looked like a 12 yr. old boy, so any figure is a good one to me) and i never had any zits before and now i have probably 4 at any given time, but i dont care, because i look at some girls 2 months after giving birth and i thank my lucky stars
lol, i get sudden random urges to scoop him up and gust squeez and kiss til i cant anymore , he makes me happier than i have EVER been , and he never fails to put me in a good mood , no matter how shitty a day i have. i love him more than i ever thought human emotion was capable of...if that makes sense
*sigh* so precious , when i het my 12 rolls of film developed ill post some pix
luv u all !
My lil boy just turned 6!! Staudri...aren't they awesome? And as neurotic as it sounds...i still go check to make sure he is breathing at night. LOL. I remember when I cried when I held his legs too...those bastards! That is really no job for a mother to do. Take it easy and love every moment of him.
