There's a certain point where I drink too much when alcoholism kicks in. It's not one drink, or two. It's more like four.
If I don't drink four drinks (seven standard drinks), in short succession, on any given day, I remain Doctor Jekyll.
ageingpartyfiend said:
You drink more than you desire to when you begin due the disinhibitory nature of said substance.
This is extremely helpful. That explains why it happens after four drinks... So if I never cross that four drink boundary, I should be okay.
I've done this before, for months on end. Only having a certain number of standard drinks a day or only having a certain number per hour etc. Then I end up concluding that I'm not an alcoholic and I go beyond that limit and then I inevitably become an alcoholic again.
I had 7.2 standard drinks the other day and got into that compulsive "must keep drinking" state... but then had 6.8 standard drinks later and I didn't get there.
Better to limit it to three drinks. That's the best buzz, anyway. Being drunk is shit.
Alcohol and Amanita eh...you could hardly get two more different vibes imo, interesting
I have dipped my toe in everything, more or less.
Weirdly, these days pretty much all I'm interested in is naturally occurring psychedelics and alcohol... but the alcohol is an afterthought; I am approaching defeat: eventually, I suspect, I may have to stop drinking altogether.
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It occurs to me that maybe everyone is an alcoholic (based on your definition, re: inhibitions) but some of us are more likely to get to that uninhibited state and really let go.
For me, drinking the equivalent of a fifth of vodka in one day isn't an incredibly rare occurrence. Probably happens twice a month. It's unusual for me to have less than five drinks and even that is a low number. Whereas, my dad and my wife (who never get super drunk) are more likely to have three drinks or so.
What I'm saying is: I think most people get sloppy after six or eight drinks.
I need to drink less.
are a real human being as well. 
