Up too early this morning, although its pretty damn nice - after taking a few day break from amphetamines and taking tons of supplements to pre-load...including tons of l-tyrosine (1000mg-2000mg daily)...makes a huge difference when it comes to Dexedrine (dextroamphetamine). It feels amazing and quite smooth (I'm pretty sure its got a lot to do with the l-tyrosine I've been preloading with).
The H leveled me yesterday lmao. Wobbling around like a mofo w/ half-closed eye lids. - makes me wish the fools w/ the oxycodone would get their shit together. I don't nod off on that, just get down to work and be productive. Sucks when the only thing around to make me feel ok is the top of the chain... Even snorting it I was high as a kite.
Bupe is such a life-saver for me, been on it to keep well since yesterday and today. Just been taking quarters (2mg) and I've never came across another drug with such prominent AD effects which provides a nice subtle euphoria of it's own IMO (Fuck SSRI's, MOAI's, SNRI's ect.). Discussing getting on Suboxone Maintenance with my pops. He can tell my opioid habit is wearing me down badly and ruining my quality of life and I can't hide the dark circles under my eyes being a male and all haha and wearing a coat in the house looks rather strange I'm sure. I'm sick and tired of feeling sick and tired like I'm living in my deathbed at 19.
On another note, got some OG Kush X Blueberry last night from a Cali medical dispensary, very tastey with a nice n' heavy stone.
It's cold here... I HATE THE WINTER! How is the BDD?!
So after a nice 10 hour work day yesterday then a few beers with some coworkers, I realized that the kratom guy I typically use sends his products out from about 2 hours away from where I recently moved to so the free/cheap shipping option is effectively over-nighting it :D Quite a nice little surprise in my mailbox when I got home!
After working 30 hours in 3 days including manager-training, political canvassing 5+ hours a day, training new canvassers and a nice stack of paperwork to end each night, there is little better than tasting your first opioidergic drug months. Plus the job isn't too bad, it's pretty cool to spend most of my day chatting with people about important issues that I actually care about.
Yeah, he's actually my favorite kratom vendor. I ordered from him thinking it would take 2-3 days like it did before I moved then was surprised to find it in my box yesterday. Waiting for some to kick in now with some great coffee.
I want stuff in my system have managed to make my diazepam last well so far, still have 50mg left to last me until sunday evening. Had one pint of fosters earlier, tempted to go and buy another can or two.