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i also ended up in not a hospital, but in a mentalhospital, all of this happened for about 4 months ago, and at my last time with 3-Meo-Pcp was when i did totaly crazy amount of 60 mg IV at once, being outside, in a stairs where heroin junkies takes their dope, needles & syringes laying everywhere on the ground.. atleast it allways uses to be for most of the times ive ben there or just walk past there. sometimes its clean, good that someone does that, i hope it was clean this day where i really messed up, because there is a big chance i have gotten some sick sicknesses if i got near any of the needles in the crazy 3-meo-pcp high when u are in a state where u dont fucking know at all whats going on
i have already experimented with 3-meo-pcp some 6-7 times before with this chem and the most biggest dose i ever did was 35 mg subiagnaly, donno how to write that propely but the Holding it Under the Tounge method, and even then it was very manic and crazy experience where i was in my room and the wierd high was so strong i couldent really tell if the floor/walls/roof or anything like that was in normal place
i would even probably try to stand upside down somewhere in the roof if that was possible, because my brain lost totaly feeling of earth gravity almost, like the world had ben switched around for constantly hours and it just really fellt like some crazy wirwelwind inside my head and the room! and was really hard to focus on what my body was even doing, couldent controll myself doing lot of strange stuff, broke alot of stuff and going outside of my room to my neighboor who was in the toilet and screaming at him inside there who was at the bathroom to finish up in there "Fast! Hurry up!" i screamed to him, the next day he was laughing and asking what the hell i had ben taking the other day that made me look and do completely retarded stuff like, when high on this stuff ur eyes look really egale and lost looking, almost like ur eyeballs is pressing themself of ur head wich maybe is the reason the eyes thinks that all things look 2 times bigger than normal, everything like the room is double that big than normal and ur telly and 100% everything is looking gigantic everywhere, and because of that i feelt like i was acctualy ben crymped to double so small than i really acctualy was.
Last time i did 60 mg of 3-meo-pcp. i did it IV, i had no plan to do it at all or anything but i was using heroin at this point and i went down a starswell where alot of people do inject drugs and there uses to be needles all over the place basacliy everytime even there acctualy are people who clean it up there pretty often also, sometimes looks like horrible....
i went down there with some dope i was going to cook up but the strong wind blow out all off my dope so everything was lost, and then i though about this dumbest idea ever about these 2x capsules at 30 mg each i had and i was kinda pissed off cause my dope was lost and dident really care about if what i was up to do was any smart or not even i already knew, but never in the world i had so fucking strong high, i acctualy have so huge memory losses from what happened and im kinda glad for that because horrible things happened, i was sent to a mentalhospital, i after that mentalhospital visit got in the mail a 3 papers of report what happened to me while they were observating me. i dont have that papers right here but some things i could remember from it was like this, the start was something like this: “Found in ditch tonight(probably on the spot i went to IV), was standing and screaming” , tried to kick the admitting doctor on arrival to the emergency.... police were the who took me to the emergency and they locked me in hand cuffs and i had ben trying to get out of them so i managed to really cut my wrists up like horrible, still have very clearly scars on my wrists to this day
and that story also goes on and on with lot of strange shit, i can just remember some small small clips of what was happening, i remember that i sat in a chair and there was probably about two doctors sitting there and i remember i told them “i can be your test rabbit” because i though these people was some chemic's who was producing the drugs.
i dident know there were ambulanse/doctor people who was taking care of me i though the people who had made 3-meo-pcp was chasing and catching the user of it, after i remember little and little more, i came to a room in the mentalhospital, and i could not recognize my hands at all because they were so sore and hoven, i had never seen something so brutall on my own body like that.
then i was moving around in the room with very bad controll of my movements so i had probably fell hundereds of times that night, finaly i think the workers there had enough of me because i was screaming all the time around in the room for people i knew as i remember but probably tons of bullshit they definetly got so tired from that they came in like a big fucking group at 5-6-7 people or something and held me down the floor and put a syringe into my ass, i think i fell asleep after that and the next day i was still having a very strong “afterglow” from the stuff, my body was very destroyed that i had hard to walk and move at my body like normally, lots of bruises everywhere etc..
when i started to get more and more normall and could talk normally i was from the workers there kept told to go to my room and relax, because they really could tell that my “3-meo-pcp afterglow” was very strong and i accted kinda still like a fucking speedfreak cause it was fucking strong, but i feelt great even all of the shit that had happened, i after asked for some valium and was given 2 valiums and went to sleep and i had a short talk with a psyciatrian after and they told me that my kidney value was very low so i was moved out from that mental department and over to medical care instead and i was laying on a bed for like 3-4 hours while they gave me water drip inside my veins to flush my kidneys so the value would go up againn,
and i wanted really bad to go to a party this night, but the doctor told me that if i do that i might die etc, but i held myself in the hospital as i finished the water drips, then i got some stesolid like 2-3 times to help me to sleep, i was acctualy thinking about staying over night because they advised me to.
but then insead i woke up like a rocket 00:10 AM and was desperatly running out from the hospital, ran like almost all the way home even it was hard because all the sores on my body that i ised for about 15 minutes to run, came in, changed clothes,
then i took about 30 mg of 5-MEO-MIPT and went down to the party wich was just 5 min Walk from my appartment and when i came there i was trippng so hard that first i couldent even walk or stand properly so i had to lay down a while on a bench outside in the backyard, got back inside but the visuals were so crazy intense that i got little anxious and went out of the place and back home,
i felt like i was dying on that short way back my home, i was paniccing and stopped some randomly stranger just pasing by was like “HELP ME! IM DYING NOW! YOU ARE THE LAST PERSON I WILL SEE,HELP ME!” and i could just see how this guy just looked like shocked and scared to even try to help, if it would acctualy be that i was dying for real. i even shatt my pants at the way back, got as fast up my apartement as possible, laid down and was calling on jesus. and it acctualy Really! calmed me down so mutch and i was not worried anymore at all.
that bad-trip lasted only just for about 15 minutes maybe, max. i spend some small time at home thinking and listened to some music, then i went back to the party and started to dance like a fucking idiot, started to move in circles fast around and around in the middle of the dancefloor while hitting and knocking to all the people around me, fell then down on the floor and was laying there for some few secounds, till some cool guy i really just know a little but also from my country, he came to me and told me i have to relax that the people are gettng scared of my behavior, he said to me you are an awsome guy but u need to stop using all the drugs u do, something like that, we were standing infront of the bar and the party arrangeur was selling the beers, and the guy bought me a beer, then the party arrangeour told me that i have to calm down etc, then i screamed to him something like “YES YES SORRY BUT I USE FUCKING HARD STIMULANT DRUGS” and he was like “I KNOW!”
5 minutes after an guard came out on the dancefloor where i now was calm and just moving easely took me by the arm and dragged me out to the exit, and said he will even give me my entrence money i paid to come in,gave it back while i was thrown out !
i totaly dident want to be left outside so i was hanging around outside the doors and like a idiot was screaming and jumping around and pushing people down to the floor when they opened the door for those who was going out from the place, i was a fucking crazy idiot, and shit that i really could have died,because my condition of my own body was not good, very very weak and messed up, that is the worst thing.