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☛ Official ☚ The Big & Dandy DMXE (3-me-2′-oxo-PCE, deoxymethoxetamine) Thread

Kodeisko

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Is this any good for movies and in what amount?
Not looking to hole, just some immersiveness into whatever is on tv.
MXE was very strong for immersion in video games ime, but for any movie with a lot of words and ”complex” scenarios, with dissociatives you'll just be like ”gnn i don't understand” and get kinda confused (ime), i think any experimental movie with more of a form/metaphorical content over intelligible/analytical content would be very nice though.
Like Enter the void, The Holy Mountain, Koyaanisqatsi, Fantastic Planet, etc
Am planning to do that also today, don't know which movie though.
 
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Kodeisko

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Holy shit, I experienced one of the most brutal, vampirizing and raping hole of my life.

I snorted coke and 10mg bumps of DMXE all along the night (about 4 DMXE bumps and 300mg of coke and alcohol), then a 20mg line of DMXE to warm me up a little more, then i left my friends and went to my bedroom, I snorted 30mg, then 40 minutes later I snorted 60mg, it was I think one of the most unpleasant and schizophrenic holes, extremely sharp and violent, very dark and sick, but no will to guide me to any beauty, it's as if this hole had killed something in my memory and put in obscene nudity the nothingness of reality and of the unreal, of everything, sucking up my soul and leaving nothing but a dreadful absurd void. I've had very unpleasant symptoms of psychosis after the hole, not knowing if what i was hearing and seeing was real or not, synthetic hell of infinites fields of insanity, very prominent and endless suggestive visuals. It wasn't funny, a freezing, disharmonious, devouring ego death.

I don't even know why / how I could have reached this state. It's been ~7 hours ago now, and i am not blocked in that state as i was convinced to be, but i feel a bit depressed and traumatized, i need the reality warmth and solidity m gosh.

It happened quite a few times to me that heavy dose holes ended up feeling very ”schizophrenic”/”psychotic” with DMXE, MXPr+DCK, Ephenidine and also with 2C-C + 2F-DCK, but this one was an unspeakable and acute sadistic dance without a will to carry me elsewhere than straight in the horror of the alienating death and impossibility of things.

Any of you ever experienced those kinda psychotic/borderline holes ? I can't describe it, this is not like old MXE void hole, nor it is like those magical heavenly holes, this is somewhere between an ego-death and unspeakable horror hole, and i don't know what it means, this is so acute, powerful and crazy, like diving too much into the abyss of the mind, but not a complete, contemplative, and perfection of deepest self, not at all.

Those drugs have too much power this is unreal.
 

ecstacylover

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Back when I was using dissos heavily, I got so accustomed to the headspace that it lost a lot of its strangeness. On the instances where I've revisited them over the past couple years I've slowly realized that they are inherently somewhat dark substances. I think that darkness was always there, I just got so used to it that it didn't really bother me.

But yeah I've definitely had a lot of high-dose experiences like you describe, that just leave you feeling like a part of you is missing. I think these experiences are quite helpful for coming to terms with the idea of death, but with the unfortunate side effect of losing a lot of the wonder for life.
 

Kodeisko

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Back when I was using dissos heavily, I got so accustomed to the headspace that it lost a lot of its strangeness. On the instances where I've revisited them over the past couple years I've slowly realized that they are inherently somewhat dark substances. I think that darkness was always there, I just got so used to it that it didn't really bother me.

But yeah I've definitely had a lot of high-dose experiences like you describe, that just leave you feeling like a part of you is missing. I think these experiences are quite helpful for coming to terms with the idea of death, but with the unfortunate side effect of losing a lot of the wonder for life.
I get it, i don't use them heavily, or at least not on a regular basis (i generally order 0,5-1g of MXE/Ketamine analogue that i finish in 1-2weeks and then take 1 to several months break), and for the most of them and for most of my experiences (from low dose to hole) i don't feel them strange but beautiful and fulfilling some deep part of my inner self aswell as giving incredible outlook on things.

But since my experiences with Ephenidine (especially a 250 and a 300mg experience) - which was a strong in-your-face hallucinating hole for me - i've get some similar experiences as i described with high doses.

It is like it bring the depersonalization/derealization/delusions so far that it changes it more into a psychotic/schizophrenic/autistic (don't know the correct term) dysphoric state than anything of a "dissociative trip", it become extremely serious, alienating and forced, like revealing horrible parts of your psychology, or an evident sense of developing a psychological illness instead of leading to a blissfull state.

This is clearly helpful for death fear issues, and fortunately the dysphoria and depression don't last that much ime, i don't think it could trigger a PTSD as some intense bad psychedelic trips can do, only if you don't redose high doses on a regular basis i guess though
 
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ecstacylover

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I've definitely had beautiful experiences with them, but I was often misjudging how frequently these beautiful experiences occurred. MXE I think was more uplifting than most of the others, but even it could lead to dark and manic experiences when I went overboard.

Interesting you mention ephenidine as at 500mg+ it gave me the intense disso experience I've ever had. Very in-your-face sort of hole like you said.
It is like it bring the depersonalization/derealization/delusions so far that it changes it more into a psychotic/schizophrenic/autistic (don't know the correct term) dysphoric state than anything of a "dissociative trip"
That makes sense, I got a lot of dysphoric psychotic experiences from dosing too high or redosing too frequently. Although the schizophrenic/autistic symptoms were more something that surfaced over periods of long-term abuse, rather than during the actual experiences.
 

Kodeisko

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After all i feel like this experience changed me in a good way, forced me to face some issues about isolation, procrastination, and not doing things for my life going better, being more honest with friends, or reconnect with lost/distanced ones, this i pretty new to me as psychedelics nor dissociatives never impacted me fundamentally for the better.
This confirm that DMXE can be used for therapeutic purpose ime.
 
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fugme

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It is like it bring the depersonalization/derealization/delusions so far that it changes it more into a psychotic/schizophrenic/autistic (don't know the correct term) dysphoric state than anything of a "dissociative trip", it become extremely serious, alienating and forced, like revealing horrible parts of your psychology, or an evident sense of developing a psychological illness instead of leading to a blissfull state.

This is clearly helpful for death fear issues, and fortunately the dysphoria and depression don't last that much ime, i don't think it could trigger a PTSD as some intense bad psychedelic trips can do, only if you don't redose high doses on a regular basis i guess though

I've taken a lot of dissos and never had bad experiences, because i always though they're inherently positive drugs which alleviate stress, bad experiences, anxiety and so on. Perhaps the only "bad" experience i ever had was a bit too much dissociation with high dosages of 3-meo-pcp or 3-ho-pcp ... until this week ... last week i have been taking different dissos (4x), then i took 35mg DCK (which i haven't did in a while) on this monday and had a astoundingly beautiful and very visual trip, then however i took 40mg on wednsday expecting the same kind of high - HOWEVER i was also experiencing bit anxiety that the whole day and there were couple of other catalysts which transformed the trip into the most intense experience / fight for my life i ever had to endure. I don't think i've cried as many times in the past 10 years as i did in ~1,5h. I don't want to go too much into the details but it was a cataclysmic crash between my good side (gods) and devil, then later just myself against the devil / demon which altogether was HORRIBLE. I did pull a few good points out of this trip, but i never thought dissos had the power to bring such forces to surface.
 

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I ended up binging through the last bag i got. Daily usage, ditched work, ditched family.

Not cool. Yeah some bladder pain and usual stuff from bingeing on that class.
I do not recommend using this more than once a week it loses its magic very quickly and then it starts acting very differently in a quick fleeting effect almost

edit: ok i lied its not that bad i just really really want to advertise safe usage not irresponsibility
 
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Mindtraveller87

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I find MXiPr a lot more holable than DMXE. You'd have to take a pretty large dose of it to have achieve that.
Combined with mxpr requires less. I have def some disso tolerance, but holed harder than expected with 30 mg of both. The hole was beautiful and had some of the magic of the mxe hole. Like my lamp became an entity which talked to me through the music that was on :p
 

whahahahwhahahahw

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im going f#[email protected] crazy waiting on my next bag to show up stupid USPS delays.
will report back on tolerance notes, idk what to expect. i really didnt have any organ pain or bladder pain like i said i did coming out if it last time , thought i would but didnt, still dont
but phew i am seriously craving this thing i know im supposed to be going easy on, aha
 

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it was fun while it lasted, looks like i goofed and purchased off a notorious exit scammer. Whoops! No more dmxe for me, yall go on without me :'(
whoop just got mine, i should have had more faith in my people i feel so bad for doubting. I hope Everyone is having a merry Christmas!
 
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Choerogan

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Combined with mxpr requires less. I have def some disso tolerance, but holed harder than expected with 30 mg of both. The hole was beautiful and had some of the magic of the mxe hole. Like my lamp became an entity which talked to me through the music that was on :p

Thanks for the info, was actually coming to ask if anyone had combined dmxe and mxpr (I found a few reports on Reddit but I would MUCH rather trust bluelighters) I’ll be trying 25mg of each via IN a little later tonight. Thanks
 

NeuroDoctor

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Hey y’all, long time bluelighter here but couldn’t get into my old account (NeuroDr) so I made a new one. Anyways, I’ve had a handful of experiences with dmxe now and I have had consistent side-effects that I’d like some feedback on bc my friends and I have experienced it since dmxe came out but I haven’t seen anyone talk about it in reports. Every time I use dmxe my palms get very sweaty, almost oily and gross. It doesn’t happen with any other dissociatives but has with every batch of dmxe since last year. Can someone please identify with me and help me out here? It really ruins the experience for me honestly it’s that bad. Haha thank you and hello!
 

Choerogan

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I will make it a point to be aware of the sweatiness of my hands tonight during my trial and report back asap!
 

NeuroDoctor

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I will make it a point to be aware of the sweatiness of my hands tonight during my trial and report back asap!
Thank you! Please tell me I’m not alone haha
Also, be careful mixing dmxe with puzzle games like deathloop. Hoowee I got so confused I couldn’t even figure out how to start the game. I enjoy dissociatives for video gaming. It blurs boundaries and I feel very immersed in the gaming experience.
 

NeuroDoctor

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No sweaty hands here after using dmxe.
I don’t think it’s batches bc I imagine most of us are getting the same stuff and I’ve had several orders over the past year from three different vendors and all looked, tasted, smelled the same. Be weird if only my friends and I had these peripheral effects. No common medications between us or anything so just interesting.
 

Jmoda

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Thanks for the info, was actually coming to ask if anyone had combined dmxe and mxpr (I found a few reports on Reddit but I would MUCH rather trust bluelighters) I’ll be trying 25mg of each via IN a little later tonight. Thanks
I’ve done dmxe and Mxipr together….and it is some serious serious wonkness. I was like in and out of holing for a bit. It was wild
 

Jmoda

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Thanks for the info, was actually coming to ask if anyone had combined dmxe and mxpr (I found a few reports on Reddit but I would MUCH rather trust bluelighters) I’ll be trying 25mg of each via IN a little later tonight. Thanks
I’ve done dmxe and mxipr together….and it is some serious serious wonkness. I was like in and out of holing for a bit. It was wild and very intense. Mix was 5:1 dmxe:mxipr or so and maybe like three bumps?
 

Choerogan

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I got dmxe and mxpr not mxpir, Not sure about the dosage difference for mxpr compared to mxpir. My package arrived a day late so I haven’t had a chance to try it yet but will report back later tonight for sure. Cheers!
 
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