You can actually get high off of benzedrex is a new one on me. What's it like? Do you put it in a hot cup of coffee the way they used to put Benzedrine inhalers?Relapsed bad last night felt remorse upon waking lost control again with reefer led to a couple beers go figure with my broken tinker and shot impulse control then all hell broke loose with propylhexedrine I boosted one so sketchy
Fed up with that disgusting Benzedrex trash man drinking menthol and lavender I am sick and tired of this garbage drinking and weed lead me to it now I am an awful polyaddict drunkard the effects are weaksauce at a "safe" dosage (no one even knows how safe 250mg is...) the toxic aftermath is super trashy and sketchy feeling in the brain I could order RC stims but I admitted I lose control and binge with a stash
Gotta stop somehow only way I see is getting more active with meetings any kind of program not just twelve step but I need them for psychotherapy
Like for trying to process your moods through song even though Idk what it is? Like a Bard from Bard's Tale?
Try it. Do it. During it, you can, explore what works for you/doesnt. Reserve/suspend judgement for now, until you're thinking gets clearer - you can make informed choices later- don't put pressure on ultimatums, in your head. You can always choose. Go for you, be selfish, look after your fucking self, right now.Gotta stop somehow only way I see is getting more active with meetings any kind of program not just twelve step but I need them for psychotherapy