What the hell is wrong with me? If I was in school I wouldn’t be thinking about the four years ahead. If I was in the Army, I would just get up and do what I’m told without thinking about the next two years. My child was born and I was so focused on being a good father today that the next 18 years barely entered my mind. I never even considered how long I would be on those pills when I got my first prescription.
But now that I’m quitting....... look the F out! I have plenty of medical and dental problems that have gone on for decades, and they’re causing me pains right now. They won’t be fixed for years (if ever), but Im barely even thinking about those things. I make a decision that it’s time to quit the pills and instantly I become Father Time.
I noticed this morning that I’m doing this: I took my last pill at 5 am on Saturday two weeks ago.
Today I woke up at 4:30 and I was hurting. I started doing the math and figured out that it has been two weeks...... almost.... 30 minutes short of 14 days. I went straight back to that morning and I knew my next to last pill was the night before. In that moment I felt stupid for taking a pill at 5:00 a.m. and throwing away the 12 hours head start that I would have had. If I hadn’t done that two weeks ago I could have woken up to a solid two weeks off and been pretty proud of myself. Instead I got to feel stupid for a half of an hour.
I’m just thinking out loud. My guess is I’m not alone in this.
But now that I’m quitting....... look the F out! I have plenty of medical and dental problems that have gone on for decades, and they’re causing me pains right now. They won’t be fixed for years (if ever), but Im barely even thinking about those things. I make a decision that it’s time to quit the pills and instantly I become Father Time.
I noticed this morning that I’m doing this: I took my last pill at 5 am on Saturday two weeks ago.
Today I woke up at 4:30 and I was hurting. I started doing the math and figured out that it has been two weeks...... almost.... 30 minutes short of 14 days. I went straight back to that morning and I knew my next to last pill was the night before. In that moment I felt stupid for taking a pill at 5:00 a.m. and throwing away the 12 hours head start that I would have had. If I hadn’t done that two weeks ago I could have woken up to a solid two weeks off and been pretty proud of myself. Instead I got to feel stupid for a half of an hour.
I’m just thinking out loud. My guess is I’m not alone in this.