I feel it's not right of me to ask for help without giving it, but I've read the latest posts here and it seems everyone knows more and is in a better place than me to comment anyway.
I've nothing to give. Sorry about that.
That's why I'm breaking from opiates for a while (except my low dose buprenorphine patch which is for genuine pain and my doctor is reliable so far in providing them).
I had a small triumph today, but it's way to much information for someone not in the bathroom with me at the time, so I'm not even sharing that.
I'm feeling better today than yesterday, my stomach is slowly unknotting from time to time, the sweats are less even though it's a hot day.
So I had a question for anyone who could be arsed reading this far.
Should I give my leftover opioids to my husband to mind for me? Hopefully it would be forever (and I mean would, not wouldn't, why do people mix them up?), but I never say forever because I know how hard that is and I'll go back to it at a better time perhaps, or... fuck my brain had a million excuses ready there, tricky wee bastard.
Back to my question.
My husband knows I use opiates that are not legit as well as having my bupe patch in place, but he doesn't know opiates from personal experience (he's sober now and says he's far to prone to addiction to even smoke weed, probably true for me as well but he's older and more mature about things than I am sometimes).
So as I'm clearly making excuses and still feel shite I know the answer is, yes, absolutely, that supportive loving husband I'm fortunate enough to still have is absolutely the right person to give control to. So why can't I do it?