Is not that it makes you suicidal, it's that the withrawal is so awful that you WANT to die. Trust me. Ever watched trainspotting? Imagine that. THAT is heroine withrawl. Hell I've gotten that shit on alcohol withrawl, which can kill you, Heroine is considerable worse.Opiates, really gives you suicidal thoughts.
My withdrawal from heroin put me in the hospital several times. After about 24hrs of not using my body would go haywire. I would start sneezing and my nose start running. I would get wicked stomach cramps. I start puking and shitting simultaneously.I've only experienced heroin WD. All of it is horrible. The physical first then the psychological. About the second day I'm puking, shitting,pissing every five minutes. My whole body hurts. Your skin feels like it's crawling. Sneezing and yawning all the time. I'm cold...i'm hot, i don't know what i am. I've got goose bumps and its 90 degrees outside. I get like restless arms and legs. My arms annoy me the most, feels like i have to stretch them all the time like i need to get the muscles tight or something. I'll just punch my head board and such. You can't sleep and when you do it's only for like 20 mins. And it just gets worse till about the 4th or 5th day.
After you go through WD, I'll be fine for days or maybe a month or so. Then I start thinkin about how good it was. The extreme rush from shooting. Then i get all anxious and wanna do it just ONE more time. With my experience it's never just one more time. The only way I've stopped was ending up in jail a few times.Then once i got on methadone but then i messed up probation and ended up in jail again and had to detox from methadone in jail which really sucked. And for some reason i never thought about detox till my probation officer said something about it and right away i got myself into one.
Heroin addiction and withdrawal in a total bitch
People always forget to mention the nightmares during wd. I always see some perverted, disgusting stuff in my dreams during wd, sometimes to the point where I don't even go to sleep. The depression and anxiety attacks are bad, but those creepy, semi-lucid nightmares are the worst.I've only experienced heroin WD. All of it is horrible. The physical first then the psychological. About the second day I'm puking, shitting,pissing every five minutes. My whole body hurts. Your skin feels like it's crawling. Sneezing and yawning all the time. I'm cold...i'm hot, i don't know what i am. I've got goose bumps and its 90 degrees outside. I get like restless arms and legs. My arms annoy me the most, feels like i have to stretch them all the time like i need to get the muscles tight or something. I'll just punch my head board and such. You can't sleep and when you do it's only for like 20 mins. And it just gets worse till about the 4th or 5th day.
After you go through WD, I'll be fine for days or maybe a month or so. Then I start thinkin about how good it was. The extreme rush from shooting. Then i get all anxious and wanna do it just ONE more time. With my experience it's never just one more time. The only way I've stopped was ending up in jail a few times.Then once i got on methadone but then i messed up probation and ended up in jail again and had to detox from methadone in jail which really sucked. And for some reason i never thought about detox till my probation officer said something about it and right away i got myself into one.
Heroin addiction and withdrawal in a total bitch
Chainsaw-killing sprees and deformed humans dug up from grave and reanimated in totally grey world FUCK THIS SHIT MATEPeople always forget to mention the nightmares during wd. I always see some perverted, disgusting stuff in my dreams during wd, sometimes to the point where I don't even go to sleep. The depression and anxiety attacks are bad, but those creepy, semi-lucid nightmares are the worst.
I am sorry you went through all of that. I am so glad you are helping others too. That was a lot for you to go through. It takes such a strong person to go through this. That was powerful.Valium, heroin and YABA (methamphetamine cut with caffeine) and alcohol That was a poly combo that wound up with me in a rehab and I almost died.
It is only through the shadows that one comes to know the light. Thank you for your kind words.I am sorry you went through all of that. I am so glad you are helping others too. That was a lot for you to go through. It takes such a strong person to go through this. That was powerful.
Awe. That was so sweet.It is only through the shadows that one comes to know the light. Thank you for your kind words.