I am going to trip for the very first time. I have never ever done any drugs except I microdoses on mushroom for one month recently as a preparation for the big dose in coming January 2022.
I am going to do it to find answers to my psychological trauma and resulting anxiety/fear around a specific event in my life. It is related to excessive academic demands at university that were too much to handle. Basically I believe there are stuck brain patterns from that stressful experience that keeps circulating along with positive ones.
Questions:
1.I am 110 Lbs and I definitely do not want to take more than 2 grams in my first trip. Can anyone please tell me what should be a safe but effective dosage for a woman of my size?
I have a contact/a friend who has tripped in mushrooms about 12 times so far and he agreed to be my sitter and he is supplying me mushrooms. He cultivates them. I am worried about how he will handle the situation if I get into any paranoia or difficult experience as he has never been a guide or sitter for anyone.
2. Do you think one needs a sitter who is experienced in guiding? Can paranoia during the trip damage a person’s mind and brain for good?
3. I have been told by my friend that to mix dry mushroom power in warm tea with lemon juice will give me most effective experience. Also I should finish drinking that warm tea within half an hour (time it also).
Does this sounds like the right way to do it?
Internet is full of experts advice that one should never attempt to do psilocybin on one’s own or with help of friends. Set and setting are both important undoubtedly. I can handle the mindset but I don’t have access to real experienced sitters or guides.
4. Is integration therapy really important? Or the tripper can analyze one’s own experience? I believe that I am in a god state of mind and am very self reflective person and will be able to interpret some of the insights I will have during the trip.
5.How should I handle difficult or frightening experience during the trip? I have read books and watched videos and am aware of all sound advices namely SURRENDER to the experience.
However if my sitter doesn’t help me in the right manner during trip I will end up having a bad trip. My sitter is experienced in tripping himself but has never helped another person trip.
I will appreciate your answers to my questions.For me it is very necessary to do this trip as I am tired of my brain’s fearful stuck patterns. I feel a lot of it is involuntary and I am not participating in them but I am dragged into them by the sheer force of brain patterns.
It's a lot easier being a sitter than it sounds. Your friend just should comfort you that your feelings are safe and normal (as they probably have felt something similar at times), and change stimuli (location, music, or maybe even subtler things if you start getting trapped in thought loops).
You should do your part and take a moderate dose. I appreciate the desire to process trauma, but it isn't a given that you will - be ready to take what you get with the trip.
When i trip, i usually have a fallback plan if i get caught off guard; i retreat to a comforting place (usually a room with good temperature control and a soundsystem and listen to an album with positive themes (can really be anything, just something earnest and familiar)).
I really have never put a lot of effort into integration, but i do feel myself reflecting on the trip when doing things such as running which foster self reflection. It would probably be good to identify such an activity that you regularly perform and reflect during and set time aside for that in the following days.
I do not think you should worry about being harmed by a bad trip, i have seen a number of bad trips (ie people lost control in an unpleasant way), and the people return when they come down. (although there is often much more to process). I will say bad trips are much more likely when dosages are pushed high, and trips are undertaken without forethought/in poor mindsets/settings. (although some of my more rewarding trips were in poor settings that forced me to look at my current behavioral patterns.
Best of luck, and don't take it too seriously.