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Bizarre delusions during drug induced psychosis

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I was wondering if anyone could share their experiences of delusions they’ve had after psychosis or know about other people’s. I wanted to share one in particular that was extremely bizarre and the fact that I had it disturbed me for some time afterwards.

I became stressed out in Tampa with my crappy job and relapsed on ketamine, after taking shrooms the week before to try and “fix” my depressed mood. I’m at the point in life where psychedelics really do not agree with my mind and it’s best I steer clear of them, especially because I’ve had episodes in the past.

Anyway, things became off pretty severely after the ketamine binge. I developed a delusion that people around me were actually reptilian aliens, who were eating people around me. I became concerned that I myself would get eaten if I didn’t get out of town. So I got on this bus and started heading off into the suburbs. Sitting on the bus I became concerned that this black guy behind me was going to eat me, so I promptly got off. Really quite bizarre and it scares me how far gone I got. Since then I have stuck on a mood stabilizer and don’t intend to use psychedelics in the future.
 
Every significant paranoid delusion I've ever had was triggered by cannabis, usually after consuming other drugs.

I've had delusions that:

- my girlfriend at the time was trying to insinuate to me that she had an abortion in the past
- the people around me were trying to poison me and kill me
- the people around me were trying to set me up and bust me
- I was the Devil and everyone else knew it and were talking about me just out of hearing range

I was never convinced by any of these delusions but they were strong enough to make me very uncomfortable, and in some cases, terrified. The last one stuck around for several months. Thankfully it's been many years since I've had anything like this, but I'm still very careful not to mix cannabis with psychedelics or dissociatives.
 
I had a bad experience on meth, which I laugh about in hindsight but was terrifyingly real to me at the time, where I became 100% convinced random snippets of my flatmates' conversation overheard while I was in the shower implied that they were plotting to imminently kill me. I was so shit scared I didn't even grab a towel before running out into the street screaming for help.
 
During psychosis I've had my own internal dialogue voice, the voice you speak to yourself with, become someone else (but it was still my own voice) and start saying very strange things or laughing/growling/screaming/barking like a dog at me. That was quite disturbing, as I was used to hearing voices, but not that.. It was as if some evil doppelganger hijacked my brain.

Hearing people have conversations inside the walls.

I've never really had paranoia or true delusions, but stuff like that.
 
S.J.B. said:
Every significant paranoid delusion I've ever had was triggered by cannabis, usually after consuming other drugs.

I've had delusions that:

- my girlfriend at the time was trying to insinuate to me that she had an abortion in the past
- the people around me were trying to poison me and kill me
- the people around me were trying to set me up and bust me
- I was the Devil and everyone else knew it and were talking about me just out of hearing range

I was never convinced by any of these delusions but they were strong enough to make me very uncomfortable, and in some cases, terrified. The last one stuck around for several months. Thankfully it's been many years since I've had anything like this, but I'm still very careful not to mix cannabis with psychedelics or dissociatives.
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Interesting how many people feel they are being persecuted and that people are out to get them. Wonder what chemical change causes that.
 
Gosh, I don't think I would ever go near meth again after the last time. Persecution paranoia: convinced the entire hotel was in lock down waiting for the police to arrive while a secret service squad surveilled me (talking to each other on walkie talkies) through a hidden peep hole in the wall while nearby, a giant pumping operation with tarpaulins and earth movers was underway to drain the hotel pipes as I'd flushed gear down the toilet.

I only wish it was paranormal delusions - then I could have easily believed it was just in my head. But it was all so lifelike and not at all trippy, though I walked out of the hotel (there was nobody around except a maid) and went home and a year has passed and nothing has ever come of it. I still believe it all happened though, I can remember it in minute detail, every word, and go back and forth on it actually having all been real, and I have regular anxiety attacks over it. I hope it goes away someday.
 
I had some weird psychosis on meth, for sure. It started out during the middle of the pandemic with all hell breaking loose in my family life, things going absolutely crazy, and I had an apparent break with reality thinking the CIA was after me after starting this thread, promoting this study, and noticing any number of weird things going on with my electronic devices/family's electronic devices. (To this date I'm fairly certain the CIA actually is/was after me, but you never can be positive when it comes to the shadowy CIA.). Those "delusions" rapidly transgressed into me thinking Neandertals evolved into homo-sapiens via low-dosing meth, that I was some sort of low-dose super-human meth-mutant, that the CIA was on low-dose meth as well, and they were all super-evolved meth-mutant super-humans, only I was the most evolved of all of them, in fact, the most evolved human on the face of this planet, and had become telepathic and was telepathically communicating with Elon Musk. Then I had delusions that artificial intelligence was after me and that we were living in a giant simulation run by AI.

Never did experience any of the more common psychosis involving bugs under my skin, secret recording devices in the walls, gang-stalking, or any of that stuff, though. I think it's safe to say my delusions were a little "unique". 😅
 
S.J.B. said:
Every significant paranoid delusion I've ever had was triggered by cannabis, usually after consuming other drugs.

I've had delusions that:

- my girlfriend at the time was trying to insinuate to me that she had an abortion in the past
- the people around me were trying to poison me and kill me
- the people around me were trying to set me up and bust me
- I was the Devil and everyone else knew it and were talking about me just out of hearing range

I was never convinced by any of these delusions but they were strong enough to make me very uncomfortable, and in some cases, terrified. The last one stuck around for several months. Thankfully it's been many years since I've had anything like this, but I'm still very careful not to mix cannabis with psychedelics or dissociatives.
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Yeah i thought someone was putting antifreeze in my alcohol and i got very unwell.
But then again there was a bottle of antifreeze there from the previous tenant and none of us had a vehicle, and it gradually went from full to empty, so was i going crazy or not, i will never know.

Also went insane from xanax withdrawal once, was bedridden for weeks. Scared to move, too scared to even text my vendor to get more so i could taper down.
Anyway i saw "SAVE YOURSELF, NO ONES COMING TO HELP YOU" Start appearing on my bedroom wall like an unseen force done it.

Great times....
 
I once took some DOM when I was in my late teens.

I walked nearly 20km in my underwear to sit at a river bank.

I kept watching fish jump out of the water and land leaving a splash yet I could never see the fish.

after watching this for some time they started to talk to me.

come in its much nicer in here.

I stupidly told a psych this once and it was brought up in a parole hearing.

becareful what you tell your doctors it can and will be used against you.
 
lonelyDude said:
I once took some DOM when I was in my late teens.

I walked nearly 20km in my underwear to sit at a river bank.

I kept watching fish jump out of the water and land leaving a splash yet I could never see the fish.

after watching this for some time they started to talk to me.

come in its much nicer in here.

I stupidly told a psych this once and it was brought up in a parole hearing.

becareful what you tell your doctors it can and will be used against you.
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I’m sorry but I laughed out loud at the fish telling you “come in it’s much nicer in here.” haha. Sounds like they were really encouraging you to take a dip.

I personally learned the hard way about what you can and cannot say to psych doctors as you mentioned, and have even been involuntarily committed for certain comments. So I definitely feel your pain on that.
 
BenzoEnthusiast said:
Yeah i thought someone was putting antifreeze in my alcohol and i got very unwell.
But then again there was a bottle of antifreeze there from the previous tenant and none of us had a vehicle, and it gradually went from full to empty, so was i going crazy or not, i will never know.

Also went insane from xanax withdrawal once, was bedridden for weeks. Scared to move, too scared to even text my vendor to get more so i could taper down.
Anyway i saw "SAVE YOURSELF, NO ONES COMING TO HELP YOU" Start appearing on my bedroom wall like an unseen force done it.

Great times....
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Wow, I didn’t realize Xanax withdrawal could be that extreme. Definitely heard some bad stories, but nothing like that.
 
acklac7 said:
I had some weird psychosis on meth, for sure. It started out during the middle of the pandemic with all hell breaking loose in my family life, things going absolutely crazy, and I had an apparent break with reality thinking the CIA was after me after starting this thread, promoting this study, and noticing any number of weird things going on with my electronic devices/family's electronic devices. (To this date I'm fairly certain the CIA actually is/was after me, but you never can be positive when it comes to the shadowy CIA.). Those "delusions" rapidly transgressed into me thinking Neandertals evolved into homo-sapiens via low-dosing meth, that I was some sort of low-dose super-human meth-mutant, that the CIA was on low-dose meth as well, and they were all super-evolved meth-mutant super-humans, only I was the most evolved of all of them, in fact, the most evolved human on the face of this planet, and had become telepathic and was telepathically communicating with Elon Musk. Then I had delusions that artificial intelligence was after me and that we were living in a giant simulation run by AI.

Never did experience any of the more common psychosis involving bugs under my skin, secret recording devices in the walls, gang-stalking, or any of that stuff, though. I think it's safe to say my delusions were a little "unique". 😅
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I think delusions of persecution aren’t really delusions but rather a magnified vision of what could happen, even if it’s exaggerated in the circumstances. The US has the highest incarceration rate in the world as most people have friends that have been locked up for stupid things so this obviously plays a part in it.

The delusions you described about telepathic communication and living in a simulation are quite similar to what I had at certain times. I think maybe the simulation idea isn’t even that far fetched, Elon Musk even suggested that possibility.

I guess as humans we’ll never really know some things.
 
washingtonbound said:
Wow, I didn’t realize Xanax withdrawal could be that extreme. Definitely heard some bad stories, but nothing like that.
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I also stopped taking mirtazapine at the time but the doc said it was xanax wd yet still didnt treat me. Probably a mixture of the 2.
 
washingtonbound said:
I’m sorry but I laughed out loud at the fish telling you “come in it’s much nicer in here.” haha. Sounds like they were really encouraging you to take a dip.

I personally learned the hard way about what you can and cannot say to psych doctors as you mentioned, and have even been involuntarily committed for certain comments. So I definitely feel your pain on that.
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they sure did and it took a lot of effort to ignore them :)

it was meant to be humorous no sweat.
 
Well, my drug and sleep deprivation induced psychosis included:
- hearing voices, sometimes as real as fuck, people shouting down to me from the houses (I assume it was noise caused by driving by cars which my brain misinterpreted)
- second stream of thought, like hearing my own thought process (this persisted for the longest time), sometimes telling me what I had to do and didn't want to (don't know what the fuck was causing that)
- hearing whispers out of white noise like fans or running water
- paranoia, that I was searched by the cops and out for arrest because I've written with a RC vendor about whom I later read online that he was 'observed by law enforcement', the voices telling me to hide and to go to mental ward, which I did :|
- thinking that I was in a parallel multiverse and my life had changed forever (the latter part was true)
- some stuff which was a cross with mania, like stealing stuff thinking I wouldn't get caught
- thinking that I'd be invincible
- once before I collapsed from stress and no sleep my movement became inverse. When I moved my hand away from me it came to me and the other way round. This scared the fuck out of me.
- during the same incident I could feel what people would do the next seconds. (I assume my brain was lagging behind), this lasted all the way to and in hospital until they knocked me out with a benzo

Surely I forgot some stuff but it's definitely nothing I wanted to experience ever again. Quite a slap in the face as well, a hard reminder that we humans need sleep.
 
In general, i'm very cautious and careful person with people. I don't trust easily and always think whats The meaning behind actions and words. I have Been bullied at School about 9 years, so i think that's The reason.

When i fall into psychosis (i truly do know when this happens) first i think ok, this again. Just breathe, it's only in your head, no one is plotting any secret missions behind your Back, no one is switching your drugs to Placebo, no one is going to poison you, there is no microchips in your head/in your system, there is no mind reading devices, you have no reasons to believe anything your high mind is feeding to you. No one is following you, no one has hacked/cloned your computer/phone, The people around you IS not going to harm you on any way. But still... I'm very paranoid and IT takes a lots of mental energy to speak sense to yourself, try to act as normal as possible and try to tell people whats going on in your head without making them feel guilty and not worry about you. This happens every fucking Time when i take amphetamine. It gets worse If i take fluorinated amps. Only with meth or some cathinones this does not happen as serious as with amphetamine, and happens only on The first night i take stims. That's why i usually stay up many days, because i'm too stubborn to give up those psychosis, i have had them for years, so i'm "used" to them.
 
A voice in my head that tries to hurt me, insult me,... At night keeping me.up.

Thinking others were going to hurt me/kill me.

Thinking I was God that was non stop starting and ending creation.

Thinking ppl were gonna bust down my door in the middle of the night and slowly were going to torture me to death.

Thinking Im going to lose all control...
 
Oddly enough the only delusional behavior I've had was before I even did drugs.

I remember between 12-15 years old I would get intense delusional paranoia people were creeping around my property at night that wanted to kill me. Being home alone was like full on paranoid state of fear. Lock everything, have knives and weapons ready around the house.. Every time I heard something I'd stop what I was doing and go check it out in the most paranoid ways. Call out hello into the darkness of the night. Sometimes I would lunge a large kitchen knife into every cupboard/closet in the house as I opened the door - just incase someone jumped out as I opened it. Really crazy shit.

Bare in mind I had no reason to fear any of this. I lived in a relatively safe country and neighborhood at that time. It's not like there were news reports of this happening in the area.

None of this continued when I started smoking weed and I've done lots of psychedelics since that have only enhanced me as a human. If anything my trip on mescaline at 16 years old cured me of any fears I had. Especially the dark/night time based fear.
 
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