Hey everyone , just after some advice for my opioid addiction . Just to give you background on me have a history of drug abuse and addiction since 15 , started using smack and speed 18 shooting up went hard till 25 them settled down with a girl had kids great Job house ect and totally stopped using iv until 39 . When I was 37 I found out I have a very rare type of benign brain tumour . Naturally I was totally gutted , my life feel apart . Missus left , couldn’t work because of pain so lost job , I was prescribed oxycodone for a few years due to chronic pain in neck back of head area which was a godsend .
After this I got put on hydromorphone , which seemed great at the time . One day I thought I wonder what there like to shoot up , and that’s where it all started . It was absolutely fantastic . I was on top of the world . Not a care , didn’t worry about tumour and pain was non exsistent.
A couple of years later , and still shooting up dilaudid like 3 times a day , most days but a lot of it is now just to feel normal . My arms are pretty fucked from the thousands of shoots .
I would like to stop , but just can’t and don’t know what to replace the hydromorphone with . I have tried Bupe , and just didn’t kill the chronic pain off . Maybe I didn’t have enough ? . The other issue is if I get put on methadone or Bupe what do I use for acute pain attacks that I have which are really bad ? If I use Bupe or methadone it blocks other opioids from working for pain relief , but will get me off needles and not withdrawing .
No doubt there are others in this situation, and I am not sure what the answer is , or if there is one cause I am pretty knowledgeable with drugs
After this I got put on hydromorphone , which seemed great at the time . One day I thought I wonder what there like to shoot up , and that’s where it all started . It was absolutely fantastic . I was on top of the world . Not a care , didn’t worry about tumour and pain was non exsistent.
A couple of years later , and still shooting up dilaudid like 3 times a day , most days but a lot of it is now just to feel normal . My arms are pretty fucked from the thousands of shoots .
I would like to stop , but just can’t and don’t know what to replace the hydromorphone with . I have tried Bupe , and just didn’t kill the chronic pain off . Maybe I didn’t have enough ? . The other issue is if I get put on methadone or Bupe what do I use for acute pain attacks that I have which are really bad ? If I use Bupe or methadone it blocks other opioids from working for pain relief , but will get me off needles and not withdrawing .
No doubt there are others in this situation, and I am not sure what the answer is , or if there is one cause I am pretty knowledgeable with drugs