Almost exactly a year from the day I fucked up, I can finally add myself to the close-to-recovered list. I will create my own thread over the coming days which will highlight some of the things that seem to have contributed to my leap from 70% to 90% in the space of a few weeks. Love you all and now that I'm almost there, I can assure all of you people that THERE IS LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL.
A few cognitive issues remain, but I have literally never been this happy in my ENTIRE LIFE. This is the first time I can honestly, and unequivocally, say, and actually truly believe, that this most terrible, traumatic experience will probably end up having a net positive effect for me. And i'm one of those guys who took 2 grams of adulterated MDMA in a night on the back of a year long period of heavy, heavy polydrug abuse (of mainly MDMA and AMT).
Anyone who considers suicide in this situation, I can't stress enough how suddenly things can change. One day, not too long ago, a switch just flipped. If you end it now, you will miss out on something so beautiful - I guaran-fucking-tee you. After this shit is ends, life is so unbelievably easy, carefree and HAPPY!