cactusdude
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When I was 19 I lived at a homeless shelter for almost a year. I had just stopped during drugs like mdma and acid (which was a lot) except smoking weed and one of my neighbours there would IV cocaine there.
At this time I was in a really fucking shitty state of mind, tons of fucked up trips and I quit school and stopped talking to my friends. At the top of it, the parents was giving me shit and threw me out.
Long story, short we was hanging out one evening. He offered me a bump of cocaine and I was like why not even though I'd never really been a fan of cocaine. After my interesest in what he was doing, I told him I wanted to try a shot some time. With no chance to really think about it he pressured me into trying it that same night. Something like "If I have to help you out, it's now". I talked with the guy a couple a times before and he used to be like an anesthetizer. He had a reliable source of cocaine that he knew and how to wash to make it entirely pure and you could tell he really knew his shit. But I was like okay fuck it let's do it. He told me to like prepare my headphones and maybe a song for that hit. I got it ready. He prepared me a syringe with 130mg of cocaine dilluted into a good amount of saline water, sterile. Showed me what to do, put on a tourniquet, seek blood, release the tourniquet before pushing the plunger and stop at half, and if'm im not dead then continue. I did and and after waiting at half for half a second I could feel the taste coming from my sctomach up to my mouth, while then pushing the plunger all the way through, pulling out, applying a tissue at site.
The rush was fucking insane and so euphoric and being my first time I stood up and felt like I had to vomit because of the taste and stood in front of the thrash can. Dude told me don't throw up man and I was like yeah no I wasn't goint to. Then I laid back and played some music and the dude showed me some tiesto song. The rush was unimaginable for a couple of minutes.
A couple of minutes of that and I just remember being so fucked up after that and shaky and just really insane, I just had to get the fuck out of there after the rush ended. and went walking for a straight walk on a wooden path for like 2 hours just mumbling crazy shit to myself. Could have been the second time I did that, can't really remember. After that I was just seeking instantly. IV Cocaine is the stupidest thing you can ever do.
Second time I had this "bell ringer" and maybe I did too much but suddenly after one of my shots I felt really sleepy while being with a girl and our friend who got me hooked, and quickly every sound felt like it was echoing inside a tin can. I told her and she got really worried and told me to lay down and she would take care of me. I ended up overdosing two times and the second time ripped me apart. I started drinking a lot of vodka to calm my nerves and when I got my apartment, I went to a rehab center and when I got out I would have panic attacks every night for 4 months. It ruined my life I am 25 soon and that shit took everything from me.
I read this guys post and figured I had to get on the same wagon with saying, DO NOT INJECT COCAINE. Not even if you hate life so much you want to die, because it will not do anything for you. It will destroy your vains after very little usage and if it doesn't kill you, it will still steal your life. A lot of times I really wish I could undo all of that. I am writing this drunk but just to clarify Harm reduction is important and there seems to be very unclear advice on this matter.
It has been almost 5 years since my last shot and I still think about it occasionally. One time I missed the pharmacy by 2 minutes to buy syringes because I was snorting cocaine with my neighbor (who had a really pure one) a couple of years ago. He could not have stopped me. If I had been earlier I would have been dead.
To stay on topic, you got no rush because you didn't do very much of an unpure drug. Getting the ultimate rush is the opposite of being safe. It is with your life on the line.
TL:DR Please don't seek a rush from injecting cocaine. It is very dangerous.
At this time I was in a really fucking shitty state of mind, tons of fucked up trips and I quit school and stopped talking to my friends. At the top of it, the parents was giving me shit and threw me out.
Long story, short we was hanging out one evening. He offered me a bump of cocaine and I was like why not even though I'd never really been a fan of cocaine. After my interesest in what he was doing, I told him I wanted to try a shot some time. With no chance to really think about it he pressured me into trying it that same night. Something like "If I have to help you out, it's now". I talked with the guy a couple a times before and he used to be like an anesthetizer. He had a reliable source of cocaine that he knew and how to wash to make it entirely pure and you could tell he really knew his shit. But I was like okay fuck it let's do it. He told me to like prepare my headphones and maybe a song for that hit. I got it ready. He prepared me a syringe with 130mg of cocaine dilluted into a good amount of saline water, sterile. Showed me what to do, put on a tourniquet, seek blood, release the tourniquet before pushing the plunger and stop at half, and if'm im not dead then continue. I did and and after waiting at half for half a second I could feel the taste coming from my sctomach up to my mouth, while then pushing the plunger all the way through, pulling out, applying a tissue at site.
The rush was fucking insane and so euphoric and being my first time I stood up and felt like I had to vomit because of the taste and stood in front of the thrash can. Dude told me don't throw up man and I was like yeah no I wasn't goint to. Then I laid back and played some music and the dude showed me some tiesto song. The rush was unimaginable for a couple of minutes.
A couple of minutes of that and I just remember being so fucked up after that and shaky and just really insane, I just had to get the fuck out of there after the rush ended. and went walking for a straight walk on a wooden path for like 2 hours just mumbling crazy shit to myself. Could have been the second time I did that, can't really remember. After that I was just seeking instantly. IV Cocaine is the stupidest thing you can ever do.
Second time I had this "bell ringer" and maybe I did too much but suddenly after one of my shots I felt really sleepy while being with a girl and our friend who got me hooked, and quickly every sound felt like it was echoing inside a tin can. I told her and she got really worried and told me to lay down and she would take care of me. I ended up overdosing two times and the second time ripped me apart. I started drinking a lot of vodka to calm my nerves and when I got my apartment, I went to a rehab center and when I got out I would have panic attacks every night for 4 months. It ruined my life I am 25 soon and that shit took everything from me.
I read this guys post and figured I had to get on the same wagon with saying, DO NOT INJECT COCAINE. Not even if you hate life so much you want to die, because it will not do anything for you. It will destroy your vains after very little usage and if it doesn't kill you, it will still steal your life. A lot of times I really wish I could undo all of that. I am writing this drunk but just to clarify Harm reduction is important and there seems to be very unclear advice on this matter.
It has been almost 5 years since my last shot and I still think about it occasionally. One time I missed the pharmacy by 2 minutes to buy syringes because I was snorting cocaine with my neighbor (who had a really pure one) a couple of years ago. He could not have stopped me. If I had been earlier I would have been dead.
To stay on topic, you got no rush because you didn't do very much of an unpure drug. Getting the ultimate rush is the opposite of being safe. It is with your life on the line.
TL:DR Please don't seek a rush from injecting cocaine. It is very dangerous.
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