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his greatest work was his engineering skillsYou ever heard of a somewhat famous writer called Ted Kaczynski?
his greatest work was his engineering skillsYou ever heard of a somewhat famous writer called Ted Kaczynski?
Hey, Don't do that! Please? I have started to kinda like you and your posts here, i would like to read them in the future also, mate!Was fighting a dangerous gypsy
Excellent post!I used to be in a much darker place, environmentally.
My life is bright and hopeful now, but I am not.
It used to be the complete opposite.
I maintained a state of blind optimism despite everything.
Now, I have lost that ignorant bliss.
I find myself, more and more, having to live for other people.
This materialistic world makes everything that was once wholesome - including parenthood - into something passable but ultimately dissatisfying.
I can do something about it.
I will do something, but for the time being: it is exhausting.
I idolize life before technology. I dream of farm life. I want to not be able to see my neighbours. I live on a fifth acre. That's a normal sized block around here. But, we're going to subdivide and sell the back yard. If we do that, we own the place outright in a couple of years and we can move to the country.
For now, I am numb. The weight I am bearing as a father and a partner and an addict and a son and a brother and a grandson and a citizen. I don't want any of this weight. It's too much. I am compromising too much of myself for this world, which I don't like very much.
I love my family.
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Mobile phones are toxic. We don't need this much stimulation. Now we have streaming networks. What next?
I want to start a new Amish society.
The Amish have the right idea, they just set the date wrong.
We should stop somewhere around 1980/1990.
Fuck churning butter, but I also don't want ultra fast speed holographic internet bimbos at the click of a button.
People are better than machines. That also applies to when you are speaking to people through machines.
I hate video chats. I think everyone does.
There's something more intimate about a phone call.
I don't need to see your face all the time.
I have no idea what I'm writing now or what thread this is.
I've had a long day.
my brain is scramble, CH is who? Captn` heroin? sorry to bug on youtake it as a huge compliment that CH thought I was nuts. He lived a strange life. We co-modded the Words forum years ago. He's a good writer. You should check out some of his poetry/prose.
Indeed... ch is captain heroinmy brain is scramble, CH is who? Captn` heroin? sorry to bug on you
Hah! I am right there myself. I've either just made a lot of progress towards eventual happiness, or I've set myself up for a catastrophic failure.Something is fixing to happen because I know this can't continue. I just don't know if it's gonna be a break through or a break down.
Story of my life lol. I never know either...if I've actually done something right or just fucked it all up even worse up until the last minute...so all I do is worry. I am sick of this shit tho. I am so ready to finally be ok. And I think I would be if I wasn't continually held to obligations that I am not even capable of to begin with. I am not like everyone else around me. Their solutions don't work for me. And I definitely ain't gonna start kissing everybody's ass now. I've made it this far without doing it lolHah! I am right there myself. I've either just made a lot of progress towards eventual happiness, or I've set myself up for a catastrophic failure.
Whilst insanity certainly isn't boring, semi-sane people can also live an exciting lifeif you aint totally insane you must be living a boring life
You'll be alright, the system here knows I have substance abuse disorder, opioid use disorder, depression, anxiety, bipolar 2, borderline personality disorder, schizoaffective, and ADHD. They haven't institutionalized me yet. Well, for any longer than a month or so :/was at the dentist and found out the system thinks im bipolar?
Hey we're almost diagnosis twinsies! Except I've got depression, anxiety, Complex PTSD, BPD, ADD, and substance use disorder.You'll be alright, the system here knows I have substance abuse disorder, opioid use disorder, depression, anxiety, bipolar 2, borderline personality disorder, scchizoaffective, and ADHD. They haven't institutionalized me yet. Well, for any longer than a month or so :/