So all this effort (and it is such a huge effort to NOT do a thing. Give me something to do and I'll do it, tell me NOT to use my DOC and it must be like trying to lose weight, people aren't any good at that either), this all achieved exactly what I managed in July and no more. I'm back on the higher strength bupe patches, gabapentin, daily vaping weed and can't control the vaping at all. I'm just going to hope that travelling without weed won't turn me into a grumpy lunatic, that won't impress anyone and I really need to look conventionally straight for at least some of this trip, meeting certain people who will matter in the future, they'll never know how much effort I'm putting into cleaning up my act here for a decent first impression. I'd hoped to stay on the lower dose of bupe because the higher dose means I take forever to cum, my hubbie ain't used to that!
I'm surprised how strongly I'm dependant on opiates, I know that sounds too naive for anyone to say, but I thought the more natural the tar, the less strong it is and bupe would cover me. My calculations were way out. Those Afghan gigantiums are way stronger than the 0.3% morphine that google told me. I was buying them by the box, 4 or 5 kg at a time, so I guess it all adds up somewhere, somehow. Maybe they meant 0.3% with seeds not removed yet, that would be 0.75% of a seedless pod. Nah, my brain is switched off, can't do the math.