Benzodiazepines. I've been prescribed them for 10 years. Only twice was I able to taper completely off them. When using so long, the withdrawals never go away. (for at least 1.5 years from what I've read) The withdrawals from just tapering are tough enough and when finally off of them I had anxiety so bad that I'd have reality breaks where I couldn't tell if I were alive or dead, sort of like dissociation...but in a bad way.
About 4 years ago I was able to stay off Clonazepam (from an initial 6mg prescribed daily dose + recreational dosages obtained from doctor shopping or other dealers who'd trade) for 2 months and I never felt so awful in my life...this was after 6 months of tapering also. My hands never EVER were steady, I'd twitch all the time, have mild spasms every couple hours, body would just "jump" every now and again, sharp pains like electricity shooting through the body, out of nowhere I'd get flashes of cold sweat, impossible to get more than four hours of sleep without Ambien, incredible muscle tension and pain (the toughest of the symptoms) and I was ALWAYS stressed out.
So I decided to go back onto benzodiazepines again, this time around with Alprazolam. Eventually I needed two doctors prescribing me them because my initial doctor wouldn't go above 4mg daily. I needed more because my tolerance had risen through recreational use. So I was taking 8mg Alprazolam daily for a few years and just 6 months ago I attempted again but tapering process was obviously too quick because I suffered a seizure. Now I'm back on Clonazepam. I'm only taking 3mg/daily though and have no plans of increasing the dose. My intention is just to feel normal. I've given up trying to get off them and accepted the fact that I'll be on them for the rest of my life.
The shitty part of all this...I was only 15 years old when prescribed them and the reason I was put on them was just for mild anxiety but the doctor never bothered to take me off them, nor did he educate the addiction potential. Fuck it. Thats life.