I don’t even care what it is as long as it doesn’t make me sick any sooner and as long as it stays slightly soluble. I had two different batches recently where someone said hey I’m gonna give you a sample of some straight H black tar.
I don’t know what’s true as in if mostly I get fent or mostly I get axle grease or what but damn that night what I was told was straight tar I actually felt fantastic all night long.
Again I would have to trust with the person said and they have to still be around and have not ripped me off the last time I saw them before they went to jail to even have a chance to not believe what they say anyway.
I’m OK as long as I can cover the cost. Lol that’s a lot but it’s where I’m at.
When I first became an H addict around 99 it was totally different. It had a lot of trash. I remember this guy‘s child telling me that his daddy was adding black crayon and axle grease.
If I missed i had a knot for the next 10 years. It seemed that if I missed I absolutely got nothing because it seem to encapsulate instantly. I wasn’t even well for 15 minutes be cause if I missed it was a complete loss so it became such a nightmare of hours of crying attempts at finding viable ways in. Actually it wasn’t me crying I remember a dealer crying. Lol
I’ve dealt with opiates especially pods for many many years because I used to vend from the Yuma farm so I would have these things delivered to several climate controlled storages by the truckload/pallet. That was a heyday. But those days are long and unfortunately at some point you realize that nothing works anymore. Nothing can work anymore.
With bluelight’s help I tried to step off with loperamide which became a several year long nightmare of the most lope I could ever freaking imagine taking. I was accused of them being Ativan …yeah I wish LOL
I remember so many years ago in the program someone telling me that one day drugs would no longer work. I remember thinking yeah right. As if? How so?
And of course like everything else no one could’ve explained it to me until I faced it myself. It’s not like now The Verve or the Ben Harper cover of the
Drugs Don’t Work means shit or means any more to me today than it did then. It’s just a sad reality because what happens when you need some meds?!